even with my family. sometimes i wonder if they are just ‘faking it’ and in reality they don’t love me at all.
i even worry myself with my train of thinking which is paranoid.
i have one friend in my life right now and i often wonder if she really hates me.
it makes me want to be a loner.
judy
I still trust my family but I lost alot of trust after my friends betrayed me
i always wonder if my paranoid thinking is the truth and not paranoia on my part.
behind my back is my friend true to me or stabbing me in the back etc etc
judy
If a friend is gossiping to you about other people, you can be sure he/she is gossiping about you as well.
Some people just like to gossip.
And faking costs energy so I don’t think most people would like to do that.
thank you jonathan2 your post is reassuring.
i like to think that people care and even like me but it is difficult often for me.
’
judy
I used to get thoughts like that a lot. Not as much anymore which im glad for. Hope you can start to feel more trusting with and loved from those you care about sooner or later. 
Have you tried joining a support group? Being a member of AA helped me learn to trust others. There may be support groups in your area you would find interesting or helpful.
This topic was automatically closed 95 days after the last reply. New replies are no longer allowed.