My mom made me eat some cheese and crackers with pasta. She says I need to act like a robot and just do it. Of course since I never eat it caused really bad acid reflux/chest pain. I just don’t feel like eating and feel like everything’s poisoned.
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It’s good you ate despite thinking stuff was poisoned. I ended up in the hospital because I thought my bf drugged my coffee and I had some kind of psychotic break afterwards. Made them do blood tests I thought my relationship was over with him because he tried drugging me and was planning on going on vacation with me and killing me.
That sucks!! I know, eating is a huge challenge when I feel like things are poisoned. The only reason I could eat my mom’s food is because I don’t think the government wants to poison her and they didn’t know I was going to eat with her. I can’t tell anyone where I’m eating or even think about it otherwise I’ll freak out that the government will read my mind.
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I get issues where people read my mind, but when I was in DC it just seemed like the government were following me, not reading my mind. There’s cameras all over DC, so if you bring attention to yourself they will think you are suspicious but that’s about it. I don’t know where you live but public places cause me to avoid all sorts of things. It’s good you feel safe with your mom. I hope it gets easier for you to eat in public, they won’t kill you in public. If it didn’t happen already, chances are the aren’t trying to hurt you
Oh and can’t you buy prepackaged foods or something that you have to break the seal?
That definitely helps!! I always feel like my thoughts are being broadcasted all over the FBI. I’ve tried pre packaged food… but I get paranoid that the government has a poison that will only affect me and it’s in everything 
Look at it this way, when people eat healthy food they all have the same physical benefits. It’s impossible for your biological makeup just to react to food like that and not other people reacting that way. If you think it’s in everything, that is not good. It hinders you from being healthy, and that may hurt you in the long run rather than the government hurting you which is slim. Being afraid to eat is a phobia and it will take some time and therapy to deal with. Just keep talking about it. Let the universe know, and you will get people to help you out
Could be the medication?
It happened to me in ward when I was on heavy meds. Last couple weeks before the discharge my appetite just disappeared, and I could barely put any food inside my stomach. It was really bad for at least couple months. I was genuinely afraid that I’m going to starve to death because of lack of calories. It was some weird combination of panic eating food and lack of appetite. It adjusted naturally after while
It’s a surprisingly common problem in the U.S.A.
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