I’m new not only to this site but to this illness. We are coming up to a year now, since our son was diagnosed and understand how important this achievement of just “saying no” is. So, I wanted to tell you that 6 months IS an achievement and saying no not once, but twice in the same day?! Congratulations! It is something to be proud of and I wish you continued success!
congrats on your resolve to say no! I understand that people have bad responses, so it is really good that you are avoiding all things that can act as a trigger. 
By the way, I am here struggling to find it and pay for it (From a medicinal cannabis user) and it seems like you just wander into free cannabis lol i am a little jealous
Stay the course! Don’t do anything that triggers positive symptoms! Good for you!
For me THC offered a lot of awesome and terrible things in the same package. I actually had some revelations on weed that were not just delusions, like personal type stuff, and processed some old emotional wounds that way, too. Often it helped me sort through things and see things from different perspectives, which was helpful at times.
But then it also started significantly exacerbating my anxiety, paranoia and delusional thinking, got worse as time went on, and it got to the point where I couldn’t indulge without having a panic attack. That created a strong deterrent, so I quit. This was several years ago.
But for me that was the bait and the trap. I had mental health problems that I was trying to figure out, and the way I experienced weed was like it was useful in helping me with that (the way I perceived it), and it always felt like… maybe this time will be it, I’ll be significantly healed, or changed in some positive way, or understand something new and important.
Then on top of that there was of course the stubborness of not wanting to admit defeat. And on top of that was a sense of overwhelming guilt, shame and fear… this feeling like… Did I do this to myself? Did the weed make it worse? Will people blame me? And one way to keep those feelings at bay was denial.
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Thanks Turnip… Along with peer pressure(everyone smokes it my son tells me) I kind think my son smokes it for the same reasons as you. He hasn’t been smoking it at all lately and I hope he doesn’t start again but then again he doesn’t go out at all. sz runs in my family and I always wonder if his drug use made it worse, triggered it at an early age or is his sz the reason why he started drugs because it made him feel better(temporarily) Who knows and at this point it really doesn’t matter I need to let all that go. He has it and we just have to move forward and be positive. I will always support him and be understanding no matter what…
I couldn’t say no & I’ve never smoked it b4!!!