thank you @twang
hey there sickmind
my name is jaynebeal and firstly i’d like to tell you that i for one, cannot hear your thoughts at all. i don’t know you personally but i do know what you experience simply because i experience the same thing and have done or about 14 years now.
i used to believe just like you, that everyone around me could read my mind and i mean everyone, from shop keepers, to check out staff, to dog walkers, to strangers walking past me in the street, to my parents, siblings, friends, psychiatrist, psychiatric nurses, therapist, other patients, even my own children. i heard them all ad they all tortured me verbally and wanted me dead and worse than that they wanted to burn me alive, rape me, dismember me, disembowel me…my god it was horrific…it seemed everyone i ever met was inide my head and they all hated me.
obviously its mentally and emotionally exhausting…how could these people hate me so much?? my own parents who’d raised me? my friend whom i thought loved me? strangers that didnt even know me?
so i got to thinking about that…how could all these people hate me and it was so heartbreaking for me to think these thoughts…i cried non stop for a year…but then i started comparing one voice to another…how they spoke, the words they used, the times of day they spoke…i kept a journal of the things they said and ho long they were actively speaking for, how often the different voices spoke, the times each spoke and the countries they lived in, the language they used and so on…i really studied them for about a year and then i began to look into telepathic research and and so callled mediumship and what i discovered together with my studying the voices finally put a nail in the coffin of telepathy once and for all.
if you look at the nuts and bolts of supposed telepathy you will run into a huge stack of problems as to how it would be possible.
take just one voice for example, say your main voice…if he or she is a real person in real life then think about the effect that hearing this person’s voice has upon you…it;s devastating isn;t it? howcome, if this telepathy thing is real, is it not devastating for them? they would be hearing your thoughts 24 hours a day 7 days a week yet somehow are able to think their own thoughts at the same time, aswel as insulting you completely separately in their minds. that;s two completely separate states of consciousness right there and they would have to be able to do this every day for years. have you ever tried thinking of something completely separate while the voices are talking to you? well i’ll tell you, it;s virtualy impossible so how on earth would they be able to do it??? even IF their voice and thought processes were were completely seperate in their minds they would still get overwhelmed wth the influx of information. now i don’t lknow about you but my voices claim to be able to see through my eyes, feel my emotions, feel my physical feelings, smell what i smell, taste what i can taste as well as knowing everything i think…now do you really think that anyone could receive all that information and be able to work for a living? have sex with your voice in their head? think completely separately whilst insulting you? use their imaginations with your voice, thoughts, sights, touch, taste, smells, in their heads…christ its hard enough to hold a conversation with someone wth just one voice waffling on inside your mind let alone EVERYBODY’S voices?
i know how hard it is to know that these voices aren;t real …i’ve believed in it myself but once you start to look at the logistics of it being real it all falls down around you and you are free at last from feeling persecuted by any outside source other than your own mind.
there is a theory that i use to explain where voices come from. there is research that says that parts of your brain that usually wake up when you wake in the morning stay asleep and in r.e.m. mode…basically some parts of your brain carry on dreaming whilst you are awake. this theory explains a lot of the symptoms thatboth you and i experience. whilst you dream your brain/mind creates characters some of whom you would know in real life, others you don’t know at all. these dream characters can talk, walk, touch, taste, smell…they can talk about anything, any topic at all…and you may well hear your own voice in your mind, just as you do whilst dreaming …this theory for me explains a lot of how voices originate and why they are there constantly for months at a time…
your brain is the perfect mimic and can do perfect impressions of everyone you know whilst you are dreaming. alot of people (schizophrenic) also see a lot of images in their minds aswell and this too fits with the dream hypothesis…so you see , what i’m trying to say is…you are not telepathic with anyone at all ok? it;s just your brain is half asleep and you are dreaming whilst you are awake…it’s just unfortunate that yours and my voices are more nightmarish in content than other that hear nice voices.
listen you can always private message me if you need to talk about this in depth ok?