This illness robbed me of 16 years

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I’m feeling better but can’t lower the dosage.

I was prodromal for 5 years, psychotic for 11 years now.

I wish I could recover some more and cut the dosage.

My main goal is to start exercising again but I don’t have the motivation.

I envy you guys who are doing it. I think olanzapine is dulling me down. It’s the only drug that took away my delusions. But here I am stuck with negatives and no motivation.

I can force myself but I quickly revert to lying on the couch.

I’m on 20mg olanzapine and 1.5 vraylar.

I used to work out 6 times a week. I was on a hard diet. It all meant the world to me.

I want to start exercising so bad but it’s like I’m stuck in the first gear.

I’m turning 41 in a couple of weeks. It feels like I’m reaching a dead end where I can’t do certain things as I used to.

I’m sorry, I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading.

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I feel for you and wish it was as easy as flipping a switch and being able to do what you really want to do.

I’ve been depressed the last couple of weeks, so understand to an extent. It’s hard to deal with.

Like I’ll have everything ready to go but just can’t press start for some reason. This depression could be negatives, I don’t really know.

But anyways, here if you need to chat. :slight_smile:

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Can you encourage and pepp talk yourself to start of with ten minute daily walks?

Ten minutes a day.

That might feel more realistic and doable.

Hope you have nicer times ahead.:pray:t4:

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That sounds tough. Do you feel depressed at all? I’ve heard Wellbutrin can give people energy and help their depression

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I’m sorry you feel depressed.

I’m not depressed, I just feel dulled down. Even my sister commented on me, she said you are really calm. But it’s the meds. I might seem calm but actually there’s only chaos in my mind.

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Yeah, I should start small. It feels like a long climb from being lying on the couch for ten years.

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I want to try Wellbutrin but don’t know what my doc would say about that.

Have you tried Wellbutrin? How’s your experience with it?

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Wellbutrin revs me up. I need sedating meds so it wasn’t good for me. But lots of people really like Wellbutrin

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Hiya @Speedy

Im in the same boat i have little energy or motivation to get moving or quit smoking. I have succumbed aged 45 to accept myself the way i am and have been for almost 13 years and being on antipsychotics doesn’t help with lack of motivation but it helps my mind so i just have to take the good with the bad. Life is hard i feel that everyday. If i came off the psych meds i might have more energy but my mind would be more in despair.
If you find a future solution to the issue please share

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There’s only chaos in my mind too. It really sucks. Last night was unbearable for me. But! I survived.

Sucks you feel so dull, yet chaotic in your mind. I know the feeling.

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I totally get it. I feel your pain. I’d love to lower my Abilify again, but that bloody noise sensitivity will just return. I can deal with voices (I think), but not the hell ride of everything being too loud (toilet flushing, traffic at an intersection, neighbours walking around upstairs), and also, too surprising, like when a plate slips in the drying rack when I’m in another room, and it’s so LOUD and sudden, it makes tears well up in my eyes, and I’m on the verge of crying.

But, I wasn’t diabetic or prediabetic before 2008 (when I started on the meds). I had motivation to take better care of myself, to exercise. :frowning: But I’m stuck on this dose. The new doctor wants me on injections, and I don’t want to dull my emotions even more than they already are. I don’t even feel human anymore.

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Wellbutrin has really helped me with depression, and with negative symptoms.

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Have you experimented with trying other AP’s? Zyprexa is considered the second heaviest drug of the second generation, only next to clozapine. Maybe you could discuss your situation with your doctor and maybe find a alternative to try.

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Sorry speedy. You should start by pacing that’s how I got back on my bike after the clozapine

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I have noise sensitivity too. I can’t go out in the middle of the day because every sound makes me tense. Even when I hear people talking it affects me very much. I react to everything.

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Yes, of course. I’ll keep you in mind.

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Olanzapine was the only drug that helped me with my delusions. Clozapine is the only one I didn’t try of the atypicals.

So I’m stuck with it.

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