You could have written this about me.
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And vice versa, idk how to feel I can manage the sz either. That’s THE thing. So it is my responsibility to stay away even if I don’t want to, the thing is that I NEED to.
Don’t worry about everyone else – waste of energy. Just be the best you that you can in the day you’re in and trust everything else will take care of itself over time.
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You tell those people that they is so ugly that someone must have hit them with the ugly stick. And tell them Jinx said it so it must be true!
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I know it doesnt help, but if someone doesnt want to be your friend it means that they are the ones with an issue.
Youll only notice it when people arent able to gaslight. If youre similar in age to me, then if you find yourself hanging out or talking to someone and then notice when they make a remark thats offensive usally it comes down to somthing you have that they dont.
Honestly. Everyone competes, even in the “how tough is my life” category.
I hope things get better for you, in fact im in a massive slump myself for similar reasons
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Yeah. It is like I never did anything to be reviled by family who used to treat me well. I just got a diagnosis.
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I think one aspect of this thread is to accept being alone as a default mode, even if I can’t imagine it. Because, I respect people’s freedom to choose whom they talk to etc. There’s so many reasons why someone may not talk to someone. And that’s another thing, I respect people’s privacy too. So I may never know why too and that’s okay.
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Almost everyone is alone some time of their daily life.
And everyone deal with it different.
Youre right that you need to handle it in some way…
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Thanks @Ninjastar you’re kind. It is true I do have positive qualities but I do have areas in my life that could do with improving.
Yes I long for the day that I have more friends. Friends make life… I don’t even know the word.
Idk why I have this dumb inferiority complex because logically I don’t see why I’m inferior but I guess I just need to really do some deeper inspection there to get to the root of the matter. I mean on the other hand I feel grandiose too. But again, logically I find it hard to accept that as true.
Thankyou for the insight.
I am making more effort not to absent mindedly go into relationship that is not helpful to me or the person.
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I’ve noticed a lot of schizophrenics are very hard on themselves.
Take care, amiga.
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Thankyou my sweet beetle bugg take care
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Lolllll yea…
Well you know some ppl I tell them I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks sort of thing then I say I can’t really explain it but it’s something like that.
I understand though it is hard to accept something that is so hard to understand.
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I have all sorts of activity friends that have no clue of my illness. I like to keep it that way though. For me personally i dont need any sympathy or understanding, i just want to enjoy my time with a few pals on bikes
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It may be different though because i have a girlfriend that completely understands my illness. So maybe because of that im ok with others not knowing.
It is good to have someone that gets it
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Yea that’s fair enough.
If I were to regularly attend an art meet up group I also wouldn’t exhibit my condition to the group
But at work my colleague sees me so much we talk a lot sometimes and then I feel like I just HAD to tell her.
But I learnt from it…
Try not to say if not necessary. 
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I edited out my joke. Bad taste in my opinion.
Have you tried the fish?!
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Huh I don’t understand,
Sorry am crap at understanding jokes lol
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I know what you mean. Just woke up and my head instantly has started the put downs already
Is no wonder confidence is pretty low
Got to get this fixed somehow
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Sorry to hear that. It is not always easy. Let’s see how things go I guess.
May I ask if you have already started your new job?
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17th October 
I hope it goes well.
Was a gamble to change meds so soon to starting, but I did it anyway
Took the Olanzapine last night and got some sleep. Got another week for the meds to kick in
Cariprazine makes me feel more alive, but positives are worse.
Not sure what is better, but I sure as hell couldn’t be half asleep and sit at a computer for 8 hours a day!
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