Hi, everyone. My pdoc diagnosed me with Schizoaffective disorder. I may have thought broadcasting delusion and some delusions of reference. I don’t think people can read my exact thoughts - but more like if I’m thinking about them/scared of them, they can ‘feel’ and sense that. Also, if I have negative, positive, sexual, etc. thoughts/feelings about them - they may sense that too. I’m not sure if this is delusional, since I feel they react to these thoughts/feelings sometimes. I do feel mentally ‘naked’ most of the time. Does any of this sound familiar/delusional?
What I’m also wondering is - do antipsychotics work only by emotionally blunting a person, or is that just in the beginning, and sometimes? Also, how long may it take for APs to start working?
Hi for me it’s more like sometimes, the emotional blunting… Taking your meds again sounds like a good thing especially if you have delusions, suspicion etc
Hello. I am schizoaffective bipolar type and i often feel like people can hear what i am thinking. It is very troubling and stressful when this happens. I am taking Latuda, Lamictal and sertraline and they help some. I think going back on meds would be a good choice for you.
So the meds don’t really take away this symptom for you? I was taking Risperdal 1mg for a month, and I was feeling more flat/depressed, but the symptoms/thoughts were still there.
They make it much more manageable. It doesn’t go completely away, it still pops up from time to time. But i would definitely prefer staying on the meds. It’s way better when i’m on them.
Thanks for letting me know. Does the flatness/emotional blunting eventually go away? The only time I felt Risperdal worked was after I took it for 5 days, became a zombie for a week, then had one day of ‘normalcy’ - felt like I awoke from a weird dream I was living in months prior. But I stopped taking the med after I felt like a zombie, and that same night that I felt ‘normal’ I may have relapsed - everything became bright to my vision again, and I felt hyper-connected/dissociated again or something. After, the meds didn’t help, although perhaps I need to give them more time…no idea.
I was diagnosed with having Schizoaffective disorder, and when I was in a hospital in Israel, the pdoc there diagnosed me with a psychotic disorder - not necessarily Schizophrenia.
So you think I should give up on meds? I never took any med for much longer than a month - perhaps I need to give it more time? When I’m around people I feel mentally exposed, like they could see right through me or something - like people around me can get ‘stuck’ in my mind, and I sometimes look at them to see if they knew I was thinking about them, etc. Maybe this isn’t psychotic, maybe I’m just sensitive or something?
I also feel sometimes like I’m the center of attention - like if I go on the bus or train or even in public, like maybe people are looking at me, etc. and I feel vulnerable…maybe this is normal? I don’t know…
No idea…but I find i hard to be around family, too - even if I’m in the other room, the family member that’s in the other room can get ‘stuck’ inside my head and I feel like I have to think a certain way, and if I have negative thoughts about them - they would feel it, so like I have to work on/control my thinking or something, if that makes sense. Maybe that’s normal? It doesn’t help that I don’t have much to focus on atm as I’m not very busy throughout the day and not currently working, etc.
No, I mean, even if I’m in the other room - and a person is in the house, in another room - they get ‘stuck’ inside my mind, if that makes sense. Almost like I have to control my thinking to try and not think negative of them/get irritable by their presence or something, lest they feel/sense that. Like I have to hide my thoughts or think positive, even if they’re not next to me. I also have trouble trusting my thoughts sometimes.
I’m not a doctor. A doctor could answer you more accurately. But here are my thoughts.
It is not normal. It is maybe delusional. It is maybe paranoid. It is probably the beginning of psychosis.
I recommended finding a med that can help with this before it gets worse. I suffered and struggled in the same way as you before my worst psychotic break.
I take meds and I still have “breakthroughs” but I am much, much worse off the meds. I’ve tried several. Some helped better with symptoms than what I’m on now, but I could not endure the side effects.
Please keep working with your doctor. It would be in your best interest to avoid worsening symptoms.
Thank you. G-d willing it’ll get easier - maybe I just need to try and keep more busy, try to become independent, work, try and build self-confidence…but perhaps I should take meds for now - I will give them a try again and work with my doctor, G-d willing.
I would get on meds and ask for a different med from before, or maybe a different dosage. I do think you should get back on them and give them more time.
Thanks. The thing is, I’ve tried almost all the APs out there, even in larger doses - but I never really took one for much more than a month or so. My pdoc was thinking of adding a 2nd AP to my Risperdal that I was taking for a month, but I’ve stopped. G-d willing I will start again tonight…she told me to take 1mg for a month and then see her - although I did that last time and I think it made me feel more flat/suicidal sometimes…though perhaps it was helping a bit with the thoughts, not too much though.