So, I had a few hiccups along the way this last year, nothing much but I was really struggling for a while there, in the beggining of the year. Since I quit my degree and started to focus 100% on recovery things are slowly getting better.
I’m able to write again, still a bit rusty but I’ll get back to that. I’m also keeping a journal now, so that helps.
I’ve been taking showers every two days, sometimes every day.
I’ve been changing the sheets of my bed every week and making the bed every day.
Cleaning every week, windows included.
Reading more, also watching more tv too, especially at night.
My therapy is going really well. Except for the homework, I forget to do it, then I procrastinate and then I forget again… I’ll get better at that.
My relationship with my pdoc could be better though, I feel he doesn’t really appreciate what I know about my illness, but I can be wrong too.
I’ve decided to be more proactive in my relationships, what is wrong has to go, what is right needs to be nurished and that’s what I’ve been doing lately.
I also decided, since I’m a loner, to be with my friends at least once a month, or every two weeks, and that’s been helping. I’m not too distance, not too close, just perfect
Well, there’s more, but I don’t want to bore you guys with my details.
Right now I am just bored because my prof was like get this done by tomorrow morning then I got it done and its not tomorrow morning, it was this morning, right after I spoke with him.
lol
so I am just reviewing old notes from like 4 years ago on human biology, taking a break for a while because I have been busy since 7am and its 3pm. I just study a lot. I honestly just lied I took a break because my left anterior deltoid started to hurt while typing, otherwise I would have kept going and written up like 20 pages of notes.
I used to take the smaller steps, I know how it is. I mean I did start off pretty much deemed as good as dead to most people. A handful of gray-haired men, mostly psychologists, saw some things going on in my head and thought otherwise. Now I am one of those type-A young men. Like I looked at my instagram like half an hour ago and noticed that I see why some of my friends call me an over-achiever.
What is important is to keep taking steps. At first, going to class at all was an issue, drinking four drinks a day instead of four an hour, taking two doses of preworkout, not four, etc.
I need pre calc 12 to get into this software dev program I want to take.
I haven’t done math in about 12 years and during those times I scraped by I didn’t know anything really beyond gr 6. I went to a self directed high school and I more less scammed my way through.
Soooo I had to start back at a gr4 level . Currently I’m doing algebra 1 now
