Sometimes in America I felt that my life was like the Truman Show. Back in 1995 I had some email discussions with my ex-girlfriend who was a neurologian PhD. There was nothing wrong with this, but what I discovered some time after was that even my former US woman’s grandmother knew about this and made a comment ‘I did not know that ‘my name’ had had this girlfriend’ It was like one Truman show in which even my private emails were properties of other people. Soon after I stopped communicating with her, this neurologian PhD.
Eventually as years passed I became very depressed and started having voices because I knew I was in some kind of a prison in my private life being highly introverted and so in 1999 I decided to commit suicide by communicating all kinds of information and expected that those people who spied on me would kill me. I even assumed the identity of the ex-KGB leader Yegeny Primakov and started communicating using his mind to which some people thought I was a KGB, but I was not. I just wanted a way out of my personal prison as I experienced the life in America.