Sometimes I think people think I’m social because I’m a deep thinker.
But more times than not they DONT go together it seems.
I communicate with myself a lot, but not with others very well
Well even more so than that I have trouble going out of my comfort zone.
There was this woman who’s probably 30 or maybe more, but not 40 , at the nature center I go to and she would make it seem like she liked me. And one time she made it so apparent I said to myself “if I don’t go inside and talk to her she’s gonna hate me”. So me planning every day for weeks to go talk to her, I finally give up I’m too timid/shy/nervous/uncomfortable.
I finally saw her again 4 days ago or so and she just ignored me/gave me dirty look when I went to say hi.
I’m not mad about this, and neither will I get TOO DOWN or TOO UP, about this situation. Pretty much I judge it with no reaction. She put me in an uncomfortable situation for me and I’m sorry but it’s not gonna work out that way. I have too much anxiety about going inside the building and saying hi and stuff, I guess I understand why she was angry at me, but the same time I don’t feel bad cuz I felt uncomfortable.
It’s unfortunate it has to be this way. But it is what it is. No longer will I let women bully me and making me feel shitty about myself for being “too shy”. You can’t have it both ways. Either you’re deep, sensitive and shy, or your more on the loud and less sensitive side, I’ve figured. It’s hard to have both cuz one drives the other in the opposite direction oftentimes.
People say that I am loud. But, that’s because I am very hard of hearing. When I wear my hearing aids, people say that I am quiet. Apparently, when I don’t wear my hearing aids, I can’t hear myself talk.
The woman is probably frustrated with you because you didn’t meet her expectations. That can trigger hostility in some women. Maybe you could make some kind of token effort to get with her, even if you don’t want to be with her. She miight reject you if you went for her now, but maybe you should do something to assuage her feelings. It would be better for world peace if you did. I think I frustrated a woman yesterday. She looked at me expectantly, and I didn’t respond because I was already dealing with some huge frustration myself. A woman is now setting up our med. trays, and last time she missed my Seroquel. I didn’t think the Seroquel affected me that much, but I’ve found out how wrong I was about that a couple of times recently. I’m wondering if I can still get her, because she was good looking.
Thanks that really helps a lot. The thing is I don’t think of myself as having any “good assets”. I am just 5 foot 5 of worthless in my mind most of the time.
Even though I know a lot of girls are interested in me, I can twist every positive thing about myself to a negative.
Maybe well I should think on the positive side. The assets of myself. As guys don’t think @ girls-the negatives. They focus about the positives, if they like the person. Maybe I should think about all the good traits I have and how to use them to appeal to people, and I’ll worry about relating on a “human level” later on ;). For now focus on the strengths, and acknowledge the weaknesses but don’t let them hold me back.
tho.
