I’m going the other direction and almost doing it daily now. I’m actually personally more relaxed. But socially awkward to need that type of privacy. It’s one of the reasons I don’t like people coming over and staying at our house for some reason. I once got caught when I worked at a store with my cousins and the guy told almost the whole community that he knew that shop there. I was doing it in the bathroom and the guy went in the back and heard me making some noise and looked under the door and that was that.The door had like a inch and a half 2 inch opening at the bottom for some reason. The only thing that bothers me about it is needing the privacy and time alone. I mean if I didn’t have it I’d probably get stressed out or anxious or something.
I went a week without somewhat recently but I was motivated to quit then, mostly because I didn’t like what I was watching. Still got some kinks I wish I didn’t but it is what it is.
When i was on a higher dose of abilify or aripiprazole until two weeks ago, i felt like i couldnt control myself. Like impulsively mazzing or having sex. Now on a lower dose, i feel my self control is returning greatly. Up until two weeks ago, i would do it once or even multiple times a day. Now today, i just went 5 days without any of it. And im not even trying to stop myself. I just am relieved to not feel that hectic compulsion for the moment. I couldnt sleep unless the deed was done beforehand. Now it seems i am suddenly able to just do it for some fun instead of feeling like I’ll explode if i didn’t do it. Im really starting to think that it was the abilify doing this to me for a long time. So interesting!
Sorry if thats too much info. But ive been a bit baffled by this lately.