I feel like killing ppl who tell me I am not doing effort. They’r too stupid to understand what it is to have my severe negative symptoms. Ughh Its extremely easy to blame my personality and say that I am not doing effort. On top of that I was much better than them before my sz and I was the one laughing at them and seeing them as stupid. They were kissing my ass before my sz.
I will have a hard time with my brothers after my parents die. My parents understand me better. I think being lonely is better if I use antidepressants. I don’t want to live with my brothers.