Soooo I had a long post written out and hit the wrong button by accident, deleting the entire post…what a waste lol
So here it goes… Again… I’m still alive and mostly doing well.
Hallucinations have decreased in frequency, last night was the first time in months that I actually had to go home early from work (I work in a psych hospital as a Program Councillor (PC) and my managers know of my Sza, so their really great when this happens)
Hallucinations are still unusual compared to other schizophrenic patients… Not voices but mostly visual hallucinations with paranoid. And my visual hallucinations are disturbances of everything rather than just seeing something. Last night it was as if everything was somewhat changed, making everything seem unreal yet nothing was changed (I know, not a good depiction). Usually my hallucinations are disturbances of sizes… Suddenly everything being too large or too small (alive in wonderland syndrome).
Starting a new part time job later this month, back on the ambulance as a paramedic… Been over two years sense my last major break cost me to loose my last ambulance job and it has taken me this long to find a job back on the ambulance with my tarnished reputation and the bigotry against me being trans. I’m over the moon to have gotten the job, but I’m also scared of ■■■■■■■ it up again due to the Sza still having its flare ups like last night.
But overall it’s going well, not easy but things are improving.
P.s. sorry for my absence the past few montha