Someone please take me seriously

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Although I think my abilify needs to be raised in mg I’m still paranoid as hell.I believe someone is going to kill me. I told my dad and he said stay in my apartment. I’m going to get a hold of my mom because my life insurance is her responsibility. I have to give her instructions of where I want to be buried.

People yell at me a lot here. I don’t feel safe. I’m about to take a klonopin . I’m really scared. If you say it not real give an explanation of why it feels like that it is. I almost want to take an extra half a pill of abilify. That would be a 5mg.I’m still feeling a hell of a lot better but the paranoia is just too much.

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Maybe the best question is why it would be real?

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Apparently people don’t like me for whatever reason it is always accompianied by. Hoe etc…

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If the yelling is real then you and your boyfriend should seriously consider moving.

If the yelling isn’t real then you should seriously consider changing meds.

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That was enough reason for that co worker to poison my drink in 2003

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I’m not convinced it’s worth murder

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We can’t move.were under a year lease. I get messed with anywhere we go. Its just this place is worse.

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I’m not either.

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Why would someone who doesn’t know me personally and whom I’ve never met want to kill me?

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Abilify was the only ap that helped with my negative symptoms, but it got me too amp’ed up. It could be that way for you too. Have you tried Geodon? That might help. For some people Geodon is the answer.

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Geodon gave me heavy akathisia.I like abilify its done more good than harm.

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I’m going to take a nap and see if that helps.wrap my mind up in something else Like crochet later. I really hate this ■■■■.

Is paranoia a negative or positive symptom?

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Positive symptom.

I like Clozaril, it has helped my paranoia a lot. When I ran out and was off it for a few days I realized how much I need it. I was always thinking the worst in people. At least now I am for the most part not as paranoid anymore.

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How are you still only on 10mg of abilify?!? That’s such a crazy low dose. Forget moving, find a new doctor.

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I really don’t know. I see him on DEC 14th I will ask him to raise it

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Did the other APs you have tried work?

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Perphenazine worked for a good 5-6 years.abilify I took way back probably did work I just don’t remember. But the rest no.

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I just can’t. Its useless.asking for people who are really fing with me to leave mer alone is just too damn much.

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Try to be smart as is possible about this. i know delusions defy logic and are firmly entrenched but trust your family if they tell you no one wants to kill you or harm you. Neighbors in lots of cases can be annoying but in my experience no one really wants a feud with another neighbor. You will get dicks sometimes but most neighbors if you leave them alone than they will leave you alone.

Other people are just like you. They want to sit on the couch and watch TV and sip a soda without bugging anyone. I understand a lot of what you are going through (but not everything of course) because I went through this too with certain neighbors. I bugged my innocent neighbors so much that their only alternative was to bug me back. I ended up moving away from a perfectly great apartment.

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Invest in a good pair of noise cancelling earbuds, like QuietComfort 20s. They have a circuit that cancels out any sound around you by playing you the reverse wavelength, so you only hear a tiny bit.

It’s worth the $250, if your sanity is on the line. Test them first though.

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