Well… I get anxiety I get frustrated and sad because you are told one thing then it contradicts it. I hate when my family diminishes any experiences I have and blame my mental health on it. It’s like my diagnosis took some of my credibility away and that pisses me off. It’s frustrating. I think I’m much more emotionally intelligent now and handled several situations a lot better than I did before. I used to let people mess with me but I know how to deal with it but on an emotionally intelligent level.
I would say anger happens towards the end but I just get frustrated. I ended up fighting one of the situations and it turns out I wasn’t the only person
But now recently more people are trying to mess with me … and I’m like why? It’s confusing. I never done anything out of the ordinary but mind my own business. It’s like they hate me for no reason
And this has been following me for several years and got worse at my last job and calmed down more recently at my current job.
Generally these people are sociopaths to me and they don’t mind it
About the person I reported—
These two sociopath just left their job they do everything without thinking that’s why they got up and left because people like them realize they can’t get away with playing games like that . Tbh both of them look like they’ve been involved in crime and had a bad upbringing. Typical for them to act out and just leave or go to jail/prison or whatever they may go after the fact.
But now there are other people that are ganging up on me. And now they are trying to tell me how ugly I am or dumb I am. I am not ugly or dumb. I know I’m not. That frustrates me. Actually when I look at them they are projecting pretty badly onto me . I don’t get it what did I ■■■■■■■ do? I am working with someone who I knew since I was 5. We are like family she told me, and she told me as I was waiting my managers desk she hates me and mingling with the same ■■■■■ who said I was not one of the pretty girls….I do my job and my manager says I do a good job. That there is no reason for anyone to start or say stuff to me. This reminds me of the bullying I went through at my last job.
Where and what did I say or do to inspire these fake ass people to say ■■■■ like that to me…
I never had this kind of bullying in my life except for in 2nd grade and 5th grade for childish reasons but that was all in the past.
Here it’s like people are just making up reasons to attack me and I’m clueless because I don’t know why or what no one has told me yet.
I ended up getting reassurance from my bf that these people are just f—heads they are stupid and don’t have anything better to do. They are full of sh—
Tbh I’m glad I have multiple life experiences to know that this isn’t the case for me everywhere
But these ■■■■■■■ people want to isolate me and make me feel like that this is my whole world
And at this point I need to stop giving a ■■■■ about them
I just am so ■■■■■■■ disturbed after that’s guy who I reported. And why because he ■■■■■■ with the ice machines in front of me to intimidate me. I had this new coping mechanism and everything was going dandy and fine until it started to get physical. I ■■■■■■■ got scared I cried and called out. It was like they are planning a physical attack on me. And that’s when I reported it.
Now it’s over and all I can do is just try to go back to my old coping skills but after the attempt to intimidate me and try to attack me idk what if I keep letting them do it one of them will try to follow me and attack me. Now I’m tearing up thinking they will never leave me alone. They even tried to minimize it. They are trying to control or put fear in me or power trip or lower my self esteem. This is probably one of the worse experiences I’ve dealt with. The misogyny is pretty ■■■■■■■ terrible here. Idk how I made myself an easy target
I just got a new therapist to learn new coping skills. I don’t get angry easily but I do internalize stuff and I have bad anxiety. I relate to the fear of leaving the house and being terrorized. I highly recommend getting the therapist to learn new skills. It’s your best bet.