My functioning is fantastic given my illnesses. But compared to the average person I still feel I am greatly lacking. I have no energy ever and doing even basic tasks can be very challenging for me and require a lot of mental effort and give me anxiety. (Missed out on getting my nails done w my.sisters the other day bc the thought of getting dressed and driving somewhere gave me too much anxiety) I’ve mentioned this before. I just don’t know how I am supposed to accomplish great things and help people when some days it feels like I can barely just exist. Am I just lazy and making excuses? I always hated the word can’t but that’s just what it feels like. Like my whole life is one big can’t.
I don’t think you are lazy and making excuses. It is part of the disease, I feel unsure of my abilities alot too. You aren’t alone.