Social reality dimensions

Early on in my illness I had a friend I now havent seen in over a decade who wanted me to stand in front of a community, denounce self love etc. and then get doused in water. I used to think about the way I am and the way they are and think about my sz in this way related to the community. It was an interesting thing to think about because the thinking of the community is kind of sz, yet bad for sz, but they are all mostly connected to reality. I think the connection to community, leader and some rejection of self accounts for being grounded.

Anyway I found connections between defect in morals and defect in psychology, community intervening to bring about a change, and a black and white dichotomous way of thinking ie moral/immoral : sick/ healthy to name a few factors. I liked the detached way of thinking the community members tune into when being brought in but not the rejection of self that would complete the detachment to your own imaginings.

Ultimately I never gave the speech or took the bath, but I did get a little deluded by the intro to the community and that as well as progressing illness resulted in what in my deluded state I observed as a parallel kind of experience in hospital. I see less of this connection now, but find it hard to deny paranoia about how powerful communities influence parallel aspects of individual and collective behavior.

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Frankly I understand none of what you wrote here. I am hesitant to point it out, but you seem to be in a bad place mentally, still. You might want to reconsider your habits.

I am mildly curious about what kind of organization would demand of an individual to publicly denounce anything, especially an abstract idea, in a ritualistic way.

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Well if you don’t understand, maybe I am. I have sz, no denying it. I’m alluding to something pretty well known without mentioning it directly. To continue my point, going to the hospital involved putting my trust in a kind of authority that is not based necessarily on correct knowledge, never has been, but something else in the order of things.

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Every decision involves risk and a degree of trust. It’s a matter of probability and potential benefit, not certainty.

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