Sober&Symptom free.... but what now?

[wrongemboyo]

So I am comfortably sober for the first time since I was a young kid…I realized I had been taught to try to hard at sobriety by my rehab I went to…and I’m free of symptoms such as hallucinations and delusions. I know they are not gone in the sense that they can’t return but it is not something I have been dealing with at all.

But the question I am posing to myself is “what now?”. I know most people either go back to school or work but I know myself too much to even waste the money on going back to school. I also know that if I even managed to get just some job that I would begin to hate it and burn out within six months to a year as I always have. I know now that it needs to be something I can believe in and feel somewhat passionately about.

For me this has been clubhouse for nearly the past two years and I am currently helping get a new one started as a member. However every time I talk to the executive director of my old clubhouse he tells me I should not be a member at the new one but a volunteer. I agree with this but it looks as though the board members of this new clubhouse don’t know me as much as those at my old clubhouse. The staff and members at my old one have seen what I am capable of and know that I am stable despite whatever happens to be going on in my personal life. They believe in me far more than I even believe in myself.

I think the next time he brings this up I will tell him that if he wants to see me as a volunteer there then he can make the phone calls to the board members. I am in no rush though to push ahead and get out there into what I have always seen as a crazy world going a million miles an hour nowhere and everywhere at once. When I look around me I don’t see anyone doing anything that strikes me as something I would like to be doing. I’ll find something…whatever is the next step but I also know there is no rush and I can only get better from here.

I’m not really after suggestions here I just thought it might be good to put my thoughts out there as to where I am and how up in the air where I will be going really is at the moment.

[anon27867610]

@mussel

But the question I am posing to myself is “what now?”.

That’s a good question, and one I’ve been asking myself lately. This ties in well with @Plumber’s new poll.

Poll: What will be your next challenge after schizophrenia?

You maintain a steady state of schizophrenia. You are in control of your own mind. Mood may fluctuate from time to time. At this stage, what will be your next challenge? Physical health Career Family relationship Money Social responsibility Religion Others (please specify)

[SurprisedJ]

It’s sort of odd waking up form this and getting into the swing of the world outside the head.

Trying to catch up… fit in… keep some self confidence… not sure what to do next.

I guess that is the next great adventure… finding out what life can be like while not at my worst.

@mussel

I also know that if I even managed to get just some job that I would begin to hate it and burn out within six months to a year as I always have. I know now that it needs to be something I can believe in and feel somewhat passionately about.

I know you said you weren’t looking for ideas… but this sounds like a person ready to try opening your own business.

[Skims]

I think the next time he brings this up I will tell him that if he wants
to see me as a volunteer there then he can make the phone calls to the
board members.

Yeah, definitely ask him for his help in advocating for you. Rather than telling him ask him if he wouldn’t mind making that call.

[shutterbug]

Sounds to me like you’re on the right path already, and things will click into place as they need to. Which is awesome.

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[anon31257746]

I’ve decided to go the sobriety route now as I think that it is detrimental for me to become stable. I’m done with the self medicating