So the plan was diet after i have been off it for a while. Well yesterday i did have a drink early afternoon and that was my downfall. I sometimes become very paranoid the next day after drinking. So today all was going well then the paranoia set in so I reached for the alcohol to cope. 4 cans of supermarket branded larger now 2 bottles of Hoegaarden. I need to stop this endless vicious cycle, i’ll never get better.
recognizing that it’s a cycle that needs attention is a huge step… also knowing that it’s the alcohol that triggered the paranoia is another huge step.
Good luck and try to get the alcohol out of the house.
I’m rooting for you. 
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You know alcohol has always been my downfall even when I was well. I just can’t seem to drink a small amount then leave it. I don’t always get blind drunk but it does at times happen. Yes it has been my downfall.
I’m the same way. It is a vicious cycle. I limit myself to drinking once or twice a week but I hate myself when I do…Have you tried AA or something like that?? Don’t mean to be the guy to push that down someones throat, but yeah.
I don’t see myself as an alcoholic. I’m not really an alcoholic just a bad drinker at times.
No alcoholic does. Just sayin’
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I’m sorry your having problems with alcohol. I use to smoke crack and I was a moderate drinker but both of those wrecked my life so I had to quit. I got clean in 1990, I have not touched any drugs of alcohol since then. I do not miss either of them.
Within a few months of getting clean I got a new job, I started going to college and I was going to 5 or 6 AA, CA, and NA meetings a week. The job lasted 3 years, I took two classes at a time for 5 years, And I almost never missed a meeting for my first 5 years in the program of AA. I hope for your sake that you keep your drinking in some kind of control and I hope it never turns into alcoholism.
Your case is classic. Someone who drinks to solve problems but then the alcohol becomes the problem. You may have big problems now but I guarantee that if you become an alcoholic your problems will grow exponentially.
A warning sign of alcoholism is when you drink, you frequently and consistently drink more than you intended to.
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Thanks. I can’t see myself becoming an alcoholic but it IS A PROBLEM in my life. You have done very well in life nick with this illness. Take care.
Thank you for your kind comment. But most alcoholics don’t start out to be an alcoholic when they drink. No one wants to e an alcoholic or intends to be an alcoholic. It just evolves when you drink a lot and it sneaks up on you. Just be careful. my life would have turned out very, very differently if I had not taken care of my drug and alcohol problems.