I’ll try not to talk about religion, but there is a religious reason why I smoke, I want to save people from their fate after death amongst other things. I know this is a delusion of grandeur and also something that is not always appropriate. Fire is cleansing and it is wrong to stop the cleansing of individuals who are dead whilst cleansing the living of their personalities. It is actually very barbaric. I’m still not against smoking, just want to only do it when it’s appropriate, whatever that means. My smoking is coming under control, I am doing much better, but I still reach for it when I’m angry or want to show resistance, whilst at the same time, indulging in it when I think people are taking the piss with me. I guess I’m very selfish, sorry.
In the past i thought that cigarettes are burning like incense like sacrifice to God
I too had a delusion about smoking. In my mind, I thought to myself, “Somewhere in the world, there is someone else smoking a cigarette. I am not alone in this world.” This was mostly during my brief time of homelessness. That thought isn’t so much a delusion and was a comforting thought. My delusion stems from that. Later I thought, “Somewhere in the world a prisoner is smoking a cigarette wishing to be smoking that cigarette outside four railings. I should strive to be the best person I can to somehow honor the opportunity that they don’t have.” Another fairly reasonable thought. However when I was experiencing an episode of psychosis, I thought for every cigarette I smoked an incarcerated person was set free… so
I smoked like a chimney. Strange delusions.
I had those thoughts too.
I also have smoking delusions. As if I was doing something grand.
I thought Marlboro reds were from the devil once, I still smoked them anyways
My first cigarette was in 5th grade, a Marlboro with no filter. I quit smoking in sixth grade. Picked it up in high school but I smoked a bunch of cigarettes one night and took some acid and the combination (plus beer and pot) caused a bad trip. I pretty much quit again after that.
Is there any drug you haven’t done?
Yeah! I’ve not done a lot of them. I’ve only mainly smoked pot, I’ve had probably around 20 acid trips, drank of course, smoked crack and snorted coke and those are my main drugs. All I did with opium, heroin, and PCP was try them a few times. Oh yeah, used to smoke hash.
Pretty cool that u quit all of them
Thanks. I wouldn’t be working or have my apartment if I was drinking or doing drugs.
I feel you, sounds like you got the ball rolling in the right direction
Thanks. I quit drugs and the schizophrenia symptoms are way less intense. Now my only hell is other people.
I know what u mean, have the same problem, seems like u can’t change them, but we can change our attitude about them… or we can change their attitude for them, but I wouldn’t recommend it, but it depends
The sad thing is that if you stand up to people who are bugging you, they often back down. Sadly, I think people should leave me alone because it’s the right thing to do.
They won’t, that’s people for you
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