It seems like as I sometimes get hypomanic episodes lasting and hour or two, I also sometimes get the opposite feeling for an hour or so too.
It happens quite suddenly - this evening was climbing stairs when suddenly it hit me. I shut down and became semi catatonic. Crawled up stairs slowly, Crawled to my room, walked slow, sat on the floor against wall all curled up, staring into space. No emotion. Nothing.
Like a shutter comes down in my mind.
Depression? Dunno. I didn’t feel sad - just nothing. Negatives? Maybe…
Is it part of sza?
It happens a lot nowadays. I get these episodes every second day of feeling like everything is futile, feel empty and desolate. Then I’m back to my normal self. Then it comes again and again. But not always so bad as to be shutters down semi catatonic.
Wonder what it is?..