Sometimes when I look at other people’s posts here on the forum, I feel ungrateful. I have a few, but good friends, and support from a big family, but i don’t cherish it enough. I was at the hospital for a week, psychiatric, closed ward, and especially the schizophrenic patients oozed of loneliness. Isolated in their own minds.
There is something about this condition, schizophrenia, which makes you redraw from social life. It’s a lifelong struggle to be insisting on a social life while living with this disease.
Yeah, I took my family for granted. Then my dad died, my mom died, my step parents live far away and one of my sisters moved to Mexico. Now all I have is my sister and she’s usually busy with her boyfriend. I used to hang out with my family regularly, went all kinds of places and did all kinds of activities. Now it’s just seeing my sister once a week for dinner.
Yeah, its another problem, i have have it too - all neurotypicals / normies have a busy life with their own family and career.
I have a “normie” friend and he is busy and im unstable and that makes it difficult to arrange that we meet, because if i have a bad day i cancel the appointment and he has a busy life.
I know exactly what you mean, @bluebutterfly . How do you explain to someone, that the reason you haven’t seemed yourself lately is that some psychotic voice is whispering in your ear more often than usual. WTF!?
I was always with my imaginary subject of my erotomania even in my worst paranoid psychosis…so I wasn’t lonely…but I cried a lot because I thought me and this woman were seperated by a barrier that I had to overcome…never saw her…friends on facebook now…anyways, I’m getting off subject…sorry you’re lonely…keep up fighting for the right meds with your pdoc…you can get better.
Ive found that the best way to fight against the symptoms is to be open about it with people. That way, when i have a bad day i feel less alone. I can talk with my friends and theyre more understanding. Ive also noticed my social life has improved since i started opening up.
Yes SZ is a lonely disease,
but I don’t feel lonely after jumping in here
I still wonder why cant I talk like this in public.
I think people in public will talk only for gaining something out off me,
I should be use of something.
Do correct me if I am wrong
Yes @rhizome and @An_the-c-ology - it can be a good strategy not hiding your disease but be open about it, even its one of the most stigmatized ilnesses. If people cant tolerate that you are having a neuropsychiatric disease they are not worthy of your company anyway.
Great you are back @Cragger - im still making appointments even i know there is a risk i might cancel it, in my case it’s not voices, but malicious attacks of invasive OCD like thoughts that can make me cancel.
@LilyoftheValley@Vertigo - hope you get better, and if you have to live in a group home try not to think of it as the end, but a new beginning, i know of people who had to live in group homes for a period, but when they got better they moved to their own flat.
