I was an imaginative child, too imaginative for school, and very happy. As an adult my imagination took a dive and I became caught up in right and wrong. It was a nightmare. What I wonder is, how many people here have the same story?
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Nope not me, i wasnt imaginative at all. Came out of nowhere, the sz i mean. I was very logical, all my delusions turned out to be something scifi or technology orientated
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jinx, your story is interesting to me because certain elements of it i can directly relate to.
in my case there was also some severe abuse by a psychopath family in my community.
judy
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After sz i saw the light which makes me question right and wrong, i feel its all community based, be like normal is being like in majority.
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I was a very imaginative child and still have a huge imagination to this day.
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Yes you may right. The problem in schizophrenia is the stream lines of imaginative thought doesn’t break.
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Thank you for sharing.
I was also extremely imaginative as a child all through my teen years, had imaginary friends and invisible animal companion, always in my head and thought there must be more to reality. I was happy at times but at others things were scary I think due to bad real situations I didnt register and my imagination combined with people misleading me causing me to believe some really scary things. Id say I inevitably got caught up in right or wrong that way and ended up thinking I was a terrible person due to what I ended up imagining, so it did become hell. Still processing this now. Overall though I love my imagination and hope I can let go of the guilt and get the good elements back enough to be consistently creative again.
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I was also highly imaginative and creative. Very associative and good at pattern recognition. Suggestible. I think it was a talent gone awry. Because it was combined with abuse.
I don’t think the blunt abuse was the biggest problem. But rather the disorienting mind games at home, and in my partnership, and MH care.
Things like gaslighting, covert threats and insinuations, blame-shifting, triangulation, use of tone and gesture to humiliate, two-faced behaviour…suck. If you are robust and unimaginative. You pick up only 5%. And with that 5% you say: ■■■■off. If you are imaginative and sensitive. You are in trouble.
Example: every time I started to speak up about what happened at home…my dad would make a covert threat…like “you have a major problem now, you will see what I can do”. In a threatening tone. That is not nice. But it is a lot less nice, if you have a mind, that can imagine all sorts of horrible trouble he can do.
I think high imagination + disorienting abuse = psychosis. For me.
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I think imagination + psychological abuse was the way into psychosis.
I think imagination is also the way out.
It helps me see through and get more free from the intergenerational nasty patterns.
It helps me see creative solutions.
It helps me find creative ways to teach myself new recovery skills.
It helps me creatively escape rigid CPS and MH workers who want to keep me stuck in the abusive situation.
I think, had I really listened to my own imaginative instincts…the healthy parts of them…I had long been healthy (and in some place else :)).
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if I may ask, are you confusing imagination with memories?
I dont remember exploring my imagination or creativity as a child. School work was my focus. I was really good at listening. I would sit down quietly and listen to everything the teacher said and absorb it.
I was and still am very imaginative, creative and sensitive.
I had and have a imaginary world where I live, and when I got psychotic, my imaginative world turned scary, tainted and evil. my imagination was my comfort when I was a child, I escaped there when I was afraid or feeling sad and depressed… I was pretty dissociative, but I didn’t know what it was. I had no name for it.
when I was a kid I lied, about things… well… I might say I saw a jaybird. when I really didn’t. but I imagined it, and it was true to me. I had problems figuring out were things my imagination or “real”, as my imagination WAS real to me in every way. jaybrids look pretty and I might wish that I saw one. so it became my imagination…
I still have a very active imaginative world but now as an adult I have better control of it, and I know better what’s my imagination and what’s real. but yeah, I still have my imagination, my dream world, and it is very very important to me.
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I don’t know about me being imaginative per say, but I do know that I have a brain that thought processes are typically not concrete, not in words, and not logical at all. What I experience in my brain, is a flurry of images and these asinine conversations constantly going on in my head that I can’t stop. Its usually with people I know and its like an imaginary people, whom I know in real life, talking to another me. But this ego in my mind, another me that is, is always cringe I guess is the best way to describe it. Its like my version of myself I fear the most is talking to people I know in my head. I cannot control it.
Yeah once I turned 18 and life starts putting total responsibility on me and Not my parents
my fantasies and imagination became harder to enjoy
in grade school my report cards always said, “daydreams a lot”.
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I’d say its related since both are in the mind, but sz has a physical underlying. Overworking the brain can cause damage to it.
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I think it’s caused by stress and poor health. I used to drink about 2 liters of diet Coke everyday, which will mess up your glutamine balance, which they say is more important to schizophrenia than dopamine. Also, I had moved far away. It’s increased with immigrants, which I wasn’t, but it is different living far away.
Very good question, want made you ask.
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