I love you guys for showing me that regardless of how sick the images are, they are only in my head. 
Just sort of gives me confidence to not ever act on any of the triggers, despite how bad they get. Never have, never will. ONLY thing I’m really good at is art and ignoring the voices and visions. I think they’re supposed to get stuck in our head so nobody else hears or sees them.
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Keep on the good fight! Do you use art to get your emotions and experiences out? I find that helps me.
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Not really. I think it’s more of a calming thing, since I’ve spent most of my life in isolation. :-/ I just can’t stop being paranoid for no reason whatsoever anymore. 
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I completely understand that, I am also very isolated I love projects I set myself, I look on Pinterest for themes and then do something, I tend to you use pen, ink and watercolour, but like acrylic paint what do you like using? ive only recently started painting my emotions because I can’t get it out any other way, abstract paintings are hard to interpret and don’t scare me or my mum so much it’s like a catharsis.
I love illustrating photos and creating pictures for family members, mostly my parents, and I like the unpredictability of ink and watercolour, makes me happy even if I have to start over!
Keep on doing it, I hope your paranoia calms down for you soon, it’s not a good place to be, I go there very often. Not so constant as it used to be though
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Hang in there! Do you need a med change possibly to get rid of the paranoia? Is it anxiety related? I’m glad you have a good outlet to help you!
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I’m honestly not really sure what exactly causes it anymore. :-/ Just completely random stupidity where I think people are accusing me of stupid crap I know that I am absolutely not capable of doing. Period. I’ve never been in any real trouble with anybody, because I’ve been a paranoid hermit all my life. Just really weird visuals and voices that won’t stop until I pass away. I’ve tried legit meds, and legit online counseling. Guess there’s just no cure for my schizophrenia or alcolism. I know that I’ve never done anybody wrong, I’m just a lovable drunk schiz with bipolar disorder and aspergers.
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