They’re going to suck, you’re going to deal with stupid shitty side effects and only know if they help by very subtle cues that are hard to notice so it helps if you still have someone who knows what “normal” meant for you.
Take them, cycle through them and muscle through. Watch out for weight gain. Look out for Akathesia and find an emergency access to psychiatric doctors so that you can get treated for Akathesia if it happens. There are sources, if you don’t have one make your doctor find you one before starting you on it. Akathesia is torture. I’m not kidding.
Aside from akathesia I haven’t had much trouble, if a drug is giving me problems earlier the better. If the dose is wrong for you, (start light and work up as needed with the best drug so far) judge what you’re willing to put up with, have some optimism and once you’ve exhausted your options go for the best you’ve got so far.
Took me 2 years struggling searching for the drug for me, it takes time to work into you, and then it takes time for you to be fully aware of what the drug is or isn’t handling and what baggage comes with it. With near 100%…whats the word? drug usage? Don’t skip doses. You might be fine on a drug, but miss a dose and it will ■■■■ you up.
I forgot a dose one day and it literally ruined the next day for me and I felt awful until I got the medicine back in me.
Just keep doing it. Don’t give up, theres a drug that will probably work alright for you.
If compliance is a problem for you, you’re gonna want to look into injections, try it, in my experience it totally blows and the lower but frequent pill once a day every day was better.
If you want freedom I don’t have a solution, I tried vacationing to my dads in another state and my insurance and medicare and medicad was a nightmare, the U.S. isn’t good at this, and it totally blows, I don’t know from experience if taking an injection is easier to get coverage for out of state by a hospital or not.
If you have to rely on the government for insurance (which you probably will because this illness starts just as you’re about ready to get into building your career) you’re going to need to thoroughly plan your move, the pill count for when you need a resupply, and contacting all the civil services in each state is different and social security, medicare, all these things, are like islands you have to contact each one individually and in a certain order. I had to cut access to one in my state and pray that in short order I could gain access in another state, and I didn’t know what I would need to re-apply for it, before I’d already quit.