I started seeing a new therapist type of person that really wants to be involved in my recovery. They want to meet with me for a couple hours a week to work on goals. They asked me a lot of questions to really tap into my subconscious, I felt fine and ok, then I fell asleep and had one of the worse painful tactile hallucination dream involving the devil, breaking my bones and saying a type of prayer over and over until I woke up at 1am in the middle of the night. I didn’t give much thought into it, but I realized when therapists release those kind of thoughts in my head, traumatic dreams happen. With the one I even wet the bed at the age of 22. I always cut ties with these people.
Now I don’t know what to do?
How do I tell this person I want to drop them bc they invested a lot of time on me. I don’t want to hurt their feelings.
Then last night, I sat up and started speaking incoherently (my boyfriend said) he said for me to calm down and that it was reality, and he woke me up. He said I was in a trance and that I thanked him. Then this morning I tried talking to people and I couldn’t pronounce my words the right way, I was putting letters where they don’t belong?
When you start having therapy, things are bound to resurface. But they won’t get better if you don’t work on them. After a while it won’t hurt so much, and you won’t react that way to the therapy anymore.
I think you should stick with it for a while longer.
It’s possible to make you have bad dreams while working on stuff in therapy. But it could also be something else, especially the trouble speaking you had. Tell your primary doctor and your pdoc too
Try to not focus on what happened , maybe because you said too much to therapist you have lost the sense of security, a sense that your thoughts are not private to you any more and for this reason what you’ve gone through has happened,
I think @Pikasaur hit the nail on the head. You should keep with it. Therapy is a lot of work. The sooner you can work on your problems and past trauma (if applicable) the sooner you can be better also function better too.
Of course, some people may not be ready to deal with there problems. If you feel this is the case I would first talk to the therapist that you want to move a little slower, baby steps, before dropping out altogether. In addition, the therapist probably would have told you if they thought you weren’t ready.
We need a sense that our thoughts are private to us and we reveal them by our will and when we want, otherwise this insecurity causes us to feel raped mentally and then PTSD symptoms happens to us like being really raped, nightmares and mental problems start and so on,
Oh wow that’s some pretty intense insight that I had no idea, exactly what happened to me, and I did feel mentally raped. Now that I don’t think people can read my mind, I definitely feel mentally raped!
I think the door is opened between you and your therapist. But you might be afraid of change. He got to the truth and hope is coming. It could be very good for you @Winterblues. Don’t let fear scare you off. Maybe the therapist can help. Fear is you enemy not the therapist. That happened to me once, I started to get hopeful and open and it turned out good. Just wait, take deep breaths, its OK.