Watching “Suits” - season 7.
Rainy weather here.
Talked to grandma on the phone. She’s bedridden but still lucid. She said I should buy myself some new clothes
I’m among those lottery winners who go into poverty after spending their winnings irresponsibly. My whole 4 dollar winnings eaten up with irresponsible lottery gambling. (I won 4 dollars :P)
Uh…
My professor graded me as 47/50 now. Apparently there was something wrong with the scoring system and now I’m in the second place out of 20+ classmates.
I mean, I’m glad I have the second highest score in my class but she should’ve figured this out correctly because she caused all of us a lot of confusion here. There were people in my class who got a good mark and now they’re at the bottom. So we’re all panicking and freaking the heck out.
It’s just for that month I was on-the-floor w/ back problems. Eventually having surgery on it.
I think that made it unbearable.
I had to call the suicide prevention line at one point. I knew what was going on, but I wasn’t sure how to handle it and i didn’t trust feedback from this site on something so serious
Things are fine now. The Dr. put me on a steroid that mixed like sh*t with my AP. Once i finished the steroid pack I was fine.
But that’s how bad things were phsically with me. I had to tough it out for like 5 days of continual suicidal problems hoping for an improvement in my back/physical symptoms
Yeah. I’ve totally been there. I have a lot of physical health problems that cause severe pain. Been in the psych ward because of it several times. Usually because the stress of being in so much pain for so long makes me psychotic. Actually have a surgery tomorrow
5am club again, even did all my tried and true tricks to sleep. I didn’t go to bed until after 10pm, showered, clean sheets, and a melatonin. Did it feel good? Oh yeah. Did it help? Not a bit.
Have a two year olds birthday party today, don’t know why I’m super nervous of leaving the house. Nerves are shot and fingernails are hurting. Gonna take a PRN. Might try to go back to bed before we have to go.
Typical morning routine. Corgi wasn’t ready to get up, she told me off when I woke her up out of her chair. Wasn’t happy. Whine and cry.
I will survive the day, might as well try to have a little fun while I’m at it.