One of the things I have observed to notice to recognize since joining this forum is the very high incidence of dependence on external solutions to internal problems. Having worked through a pile of my own (and still…), I’m not looking down my nose, however.
I spent most of my life believing in the b######t the common cult-ure handed to me. For example, “there’s a pill that will fix it” and “sex, romance and relationship will fix it.” So I kept on trying to fix my semi-psychotic bipolar hypomania with… pills (of one sort and shape or another, but drugs in general… including two-legged pills).
It never worked, but I kept trying because all I heard from the common cult-ure was, “No. This stuff works. Just keep trying.” So I kept repeating the same mistakes expecting different results.
But if I wasn’t well-equipped to deal with reality, what kind of two-legged fixes was I attracting? Well, duh.
What I see in so many of the posts here looks and sounds like what I did for so many years: Barking up the wrong tree. Sex, romance and relationships never solved my problems. They just distracted me from seeking the actual solutions to them.
Which, over time, proved to be coming to recognize, acknowledge, accept, own, appreciate and understand my fixations on others as my “pills” (as well as pills as my pills) so that I could jump out of that hopeless box.
I had to take my meds for the conscious, mindful purpose of remaining sufficiently stable to be able to do the cognitive-behavioral and mindfulness-based cognitive-behavioral psychotherapies that slowly but relentlessly reduced my psychotic, anxious, manic and depressive symptoms over time.
If you read to this point and want to know how this happened in more detail, you’re welcome to ask.