how manyvollts are you spoon fed until you dont know your electronics, play for real, xbox wargames, until you get ptsd
who
war is very important it funds the drugs you given, against whom?
dub cat
2,3,4 spot light
shh why must I hide from myself when I love the crowd
electrict co
but if you don’t know
chemicals
make up a reason if you must
you need, don’t replace them
stand up
*
■■■■ $
yeah,making freinds
yeah you better integrate your hatred lover
you know you are a killer, you want to believe,
but you must experience in the isolation of your room
head heavy, broken drug addict, went deeper into black and white
his heart you say?
how bllak, not skn, character, see teh hands that build can also pull down, even the hands with vaseline
petroluem products
Who are you?
I am done talking to you, now it is your time to talk to your self, my great friend
I am with you always.
who are you,
oh gee such a great statement
you are the awareness, when the question who is followed back to The Source, you are free, there is no bottom to you, any idea of your self is not you, you are are aware, see what is never born, and does not die, experience the rest, before any thought arise and you cling to me
who are you? who am I?
Hello Pixel
I have been married for twenty years, I have four kids all teenagers, the first of which just graduated high school this year. I work in a specialty welding shop for food grade 3a manufacturing last ten years. I have worked in the manufacturing process fields for over twenty years as a tool and die maker, robot weld programmer and maintenance. I served three years of service in the army 8 months of that in desert storm. After getting out of the army I studied computer science and electrical engineering for 5 years at our state college.
When I was thirteen I started calling souls into me and have done this for over thirty years. I woke up a year and a half ago and started calling other things into me. I am not spiritual or religious and definitely do not live by any set of guidelines other then morals. I hear and speak to voices all day long and experience their dreams at night as I am trying to understand them. I do believe that I am somewhat a believer in shamanism but not in mysticism for me anyway.
Powessy
Hi Pixel,
My family is a very science based. I usually avoid anything that says shamanism in it because I’ve had some periods were that was a hard belief to shake off… I’m doing better with it day by day.
I’m 30… diagnosed at 17. Med compliant and I go to my therapist for CBT and other therapies that might help.
I’m a gardener / landscaper for the parks department. I’m in school studying horticulture… I really want to work in the nurseries.
I live in an apartment with my sister. She’s my best friend. I live in the city I was born in… my parents and other family only lives 20 minutes away at most. I feel very lucky to come from a large and mostly supportive family.
I have a girl friend… it’s getting serious. I asked her to marry me… she said “yes but not yet”
I would never suggest anyone to do this… and it was not an easy decision for me either… but I gave up my SSDI and other benefits because the job I was offered had good bennies too. I really wanted the better job.
when I get more time again… I’d love to volunteer again with the food bank.
Since I barely graduated high school and know very little about computers and all that… I don’t consider myself very highly educated. I don’t have any degrees… and barely got my ED. But I get by.
I live independently, am a self employed consultant and self sufficient. Have a degree in engineering and a scientific background. Support from family but minimal contact with services. Drink occasionally but have never had problems with any kind of substance abuse.
In terms of my views, they are mostly Buddhist / alternative, with some scientific hold overs. I put more faith into modern spiritual teachers like Eckhart Tolle than in ancient religions, and have respect for some of the attempts to approach spirituality from a more scientific perspective, such as Anthroposophy and Theosophy, and the writings of Jung. It just seems a cleaner approach than many ancient religions and traditions which are full of superstitious remnants. And I have a soft spot for the sufi’s.
I can’t favor no shamanism.
Almost all of my visuals can be seen in principle on graham hancock’s “angels, aliens, elves, and ayahuasca.”
But i was just tortured though. They really let me have it to, for a long long long long long long long time.
He mentions it in the video actually, sometimes they torture people.
I also got to see this shaman torture a chicken to “feed” them. You know, kind of a trade off. He wasn’t offering some of his food or anything like that, he just tortured it for them.
I don’t favor no shamanism. Especially not after seeing some of these children, like the beings torturing little becca on youtube, thats some very ■■■■■■ up ■■■■. What was she anyway? Like ten?
my alien 
gives me wisdom, answers, guidance and even health tips.
so i am totally normal. ( and not on meds…mmmmmm )
take care 
What is being recovered? Should we recover? Just depends on what is recovered. I don’t like covering things,did that most of my life so recovering things seems like a stupid plan. I would rather transcend. Getting job, I have had plenty, got me no where, got me sick, everyone needs assistance, no one lives alone, everyone lives with support, parents are involved if they are good at it aint if they aint, marriage is over rated and over hyped. Love is everything and being in the spirit is essential to living.
Does that answer your question Pixel (that plus all the art I shared with you)?
Its gonna take a lot more than drugs to deal with resolving my psychosis, it took a lot to make it happen. Drugs cover or bury a person before they are dead, that is why they are called “neuroleptics” and “anti-psychotics” not against using them, but solid dependence on them to be another drone in the WASP nest is not my idea of living.
Additionally, the point of the shamanic ideal raising is not sit around and worship the past or primative societies, it is simply to point out that people with our gifts and disabilities in other societies and in the past have and had a place of influence in their societies and played vital roles with those talants, in a materialist culture such as our own our people have no place really with our talents and disabilites, instead we are told to cover ourselves with drugs so we can “function” as expected when it is actually against not only our nature but our birth right as human beings. I am not glorifying sickness or suffering when I write that, I am saying the majority of the suffering I experience is not being able to be who I am without threat of coercion or vioence against me. This society is sick with its things and ideas about what constitutes liberty. Just depends what you value. I value my gifts and disabilities because they have allowed me to help others and grow.
Not really. To be honest, I miss the old you. You were a lot more interesting to chat with when you were flying level. You had a wide and interesting variety of interests that you shared. You may think you sounded like a drone then, but you actually sound like one now. It’s really sad. 
Pixel.
Well, I am not really here to impress you, never was. I am more interested in understaniing what psychosis is, what causes it and how to resolve it not intrested in recovery. Used to be. Not anymore. I am not going cover myself to please you or anyone, I will be polite but, I am not here to impresss you.
Thanks for your judicious attitude though, it is really beneficial (NOT). Don’t tell me you are sad about my condition or progress when you are back handing me and praising your ideology.
Look man, I just miss the you who was cheerful and forward looking. You haven’t been that person for a long time. I’m sorry that my concern for your well-being has caused offence. I’ll go bother someone else.
Pixel.
I like how you make personal references in a way that elevates yourself and your perception of how I used to act and how I act now. Please do go bug someone else, bettter yet why don’t you get out of the house for a change and or help your mother and do something other than moderate how others express themselves. You only in control of you 
Don’t wanna fight with ya. Be well man. Please keep checking in.
Pixel.
I thought the ultimate aim of resolving psychosis was to get to a point where recovery was possible, It may not always be possible but this is what patients/family/ and mental health professionals should be working towards.
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I feel it is reasonable for those you are dispensing advice to show that advice has worked out for the person who is dispensing it.
[/quote]You’re old, aren’t you? Like 40’s or 50’s, right? I can’t compare to that right now as I’m only 1 month into my med-free phase of recovery & a mere 27; only suffered SZ as a prognosis/diagnosis for 3 years total, but unlike many here I stayed far away from drugs (illegal ones) & kept my head level and out of hospitals…
I don’t believe in “levels” of recovery by scaling them according to middle-class “value systems”. It’s okay to live alone & require economic assistance (my situation).
I have done lots of activist work online for politics, religion, LGBT rights, and spirituality. I do a lot of communicating & helping with the family (a highly dysfunctional one from the 1990’s) and have done lots of humanitarian writing all across this web. In fact, to waste time working for a private company again would be just that - a waste of time. At some point, the U.S. and abroad will adopt living-wage systems and people like me will be self-employing or pre-occupying themselves with humanitarian interests of the time/era.
As for health, I posted my bodybuilding pics from ages ago. When it comes to physical health, I guarantee I am the most experienced one here besides mortimermouse when it comes exercise & dieting. I share from over a decade of experience in that department, even have experience as a personal-trainer; so my route is of course always going to be holistic/natural & why I shun pharmaceuticals (which I legit trialed for nearly a year and am still recovering from).