Motivation.
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I got several reasons, but I lost my mind and havnt been stable.
Because of the intrusive thoughts I rarely leave my home. Also I get confused easily
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Because my body is broken and my brains fcuked up.
I’m being followed and recorded by navy SEALs and they harass me when I work. They follow my every move. The only time they leave me alone is when I’m at home. They even have my husband’s friends reporting on me. Plus, I have a horrible memory now, so I don’t learn fast enough. And at my last job they told me I was too slow
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I don’t work because I live in an assisted living center for the mentally ill. I’m not fast enough to work at fast food. I’m no good at sales jobs. I could have worked outside digging ditches, but the antipsychotic medication I take made it impossible for me to endure harsh weather. I’m more susceptible to heat stroke in the summer and hypothermia in the winter. I’d probably catch pneumonia pretty quickly if I had to work outside in the cold.
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I have a feeling I’m slower than most. Picking up on subtle hints and clues but it’s only my fourth day part time working. I never touched or learned about tools or mechanics or electricity. Hell, I have more energy than my step-dad and co-worker lol.
I don’t know what a circuit is or anything about wires basically. Anyways, I plan on doing the ticket to work program or stay on SSI and work but will call social security tomorrow. I feel blessed.
My step-dad is an EE and has a company but it’s not doing well and it’s only him really. So I will ask him eventually after a while to be an electrician apprentice some day lol. It’s 5 years long and I just thought of this. I could do industrial, commercial, or even residential. After I do this for a while, I can afford school perhaps and feel less paranoid and sick and get my EE or CE degree and be an engineer and start my own company some day…as a contractor.
I just have a feeling I’m really slow and behind my peers for my age. But schizophrenia does that ■■■■ to people. Ruins their lives.
I have a lot of family members or did that worked with electricity. It’s a family thing, I guess lol. Not sure why I choose math maybe because it seemed easy and harder and more lucrative. I regret it though.
My head feels foggy and cloudy like there’s either nothing there (empty) or the fuel has been expended lol.
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Stress. I get stressed I get paranoid. It becomes problematic and hard to maintain a job when I get paranoid so I’m happy to survive on disability and do volunteer work.
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At the moment it is because I experienced break through symptoms so I left work.
I’ll go back as soon as I feel like it. As a student it gets stressful to attend school and also go to work so I feel it is sensible to not work at least till I get the degree.
Me too. The stress builds and I become fearful of another episode 
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For me its negatives. I went back to work after my in patient stay, and couldn’t work more then 15min without becoming out of breath and I started to get panic attacks. This is after going a full year and a half full speed, being one of the most productive members of the team. I am not making that part up. Thats literally what my work ethic was like. People were like dude why do you bother, and I was like…its good exercise and I want my employers to get what they’re paying for.
If they invent a drug that possibly fixes the negatives whiles till addressing what positives I have, I will have to think long and hard about how I transition my life back to working. I want it so bad, but my education has been delayed so long and I had trouble learning as is.
-anxiety
-fear of being harassed/bullied
-memory problems and problems following directions
The reason I haven’t worked in 20 years is mainly to do with the insurance companies. They always out to knife you in the back, anyway they can get at you.
Even if that weren’t an issue, my back is so badly screwed up from the accident, I have a hard time sitting or standing for very long. Maybe 20 minutes. So I spend a lot of time laying on my left side, it’s the only position that provides some relief
Besides all that, there is the psychological cocktail of dissociative disorder, major depressive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and now schizophrenia and seizuring. Not really a winning combination LOL
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@anon28145038 good on you for giving working a try! I kind of envy you.
I think you might find that when you have been working for a while, the fogginess and cobwebs will start to clear. The mind is just like a muscle, it’s either use it or lose it I think
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I have feeling of constant stress, not because i am literally stressed, but my diagnose, my mood swings, stresses me out.
I have had a lot of jobs, but i’m burned out now. I can work for a period, but then i break down. My social worker recently told me i should go on disability.
So:
my symptoms, both positive and negative
my depressive periods
a constant feeling of stress.
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my doctor took my license in september 2019, so i had to quit my job-- i cant drive anywhere and im afraid of public transportation. in my jobs, i always made stupid mistakes, couldnt socialize or handle customers well at all. now that im jobless (if self employment isnt included) im spiraling worse than i ever have. id like to think that having a job made me stable, though thats probably farthest from true
now that im in a wheelchair, i have even less job options. i probably wont be working ever again.
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So sorry, hon. 
Stress levels really
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I tried working or try cleaning the house.
During busy times I get anxiety,fatigue,very tired. Sometimes I don’t know what to say to coworkers or to people. Sometimes I forget what I’m doing.
I used to work in warehouse.
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I lost my job just over a month ago. I lost it because of my negative and cognitive symptoms. Im looking for a part time job. I can’t work fulltime anymore. I feel useless.
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