So now I’m dealing with PTSD stuff from my episode last year. I keep thinking about all the symptoms I had, it was a lot, all day, luckily it only last a week. But I had full blown psychosis worse than ever, and I lost insight. I also had my first non epileptic seizure, and a few more after, and complete paralysis, or partial, and I fell over a lot, lost my ability to talk several times, had dystonia and catatonic like symptoms. I had no idea what was going on. This morning I’m obsessing over keep my brain slowed down because what triggered my seizure was my thoughts got completely jumbled at the drop of a hat. They sped up so fast and became almost 3 dimensional with so many trains of thoughts colliding it sounded like 100 TVs going at once. I don’t want that again. I’m terrified of it.
Any idea what triggered said episode?
In my case I take full responsibikity for all episodes bar the first one, because they happened after I’d stopped taking my AP.
You need to talk to someone irl about your struggles. Someone who’s able to listen patiently and compassionately. Writing here isn’t enough. Use your voice, speak freely and don’t think twice before saying what’s on your mind, regardless of how it sounds.
I see a therapist. We’re working through trauma so it’s coming up more. What triggered it was I wasn’t eating enough with Latuda and I had a lot of stress build up after my car accident last year and then my partner and I had a major fight. I drove four hours to go see him so I could just hug him and talk it over but when I got there I was psychotic
That’s good. No, that’s great!
My therapist are my close friends, sometimes mom too although I wouldn’t have her worry too much so I hold back.
Therapy can be super helpful. Have you found it helpful for psychosis? I feel like my meds and therapy have resolved a lot of my delusional thinking
I still have some weird beliefs regarding the origin of hallucinations, that no amount of therapy could ever dispell. But it’s something I can live with. On the other hand my social skills have taken a plunge, possibly due to psychosis - related ptsd. Sometimes, talking to someone new feels really dreadful, as if I’m about to be punished for something I don’t remember doing.