Do you think that people with Schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders have a sort of special language?
When I speak to people they have a hard time understanding me. I have to rephrase what I say a lot because I word things strangely. I speak cryptically when psychotic and I have hard time deciphering my past writings as well. But when someone speaks through their psychosis I can easily understand it. What makes no sense to most people makes perfect sense to me. Is it because we’ve been through similar experiences or is there a hidden language behind it all?
I think of it as ‘phasing’. For instance:
If you’re out of phase with this world and in phase with the psychosis world, communication with ppl in phase with this world will be hard and communication with ppl in the psychosis world will be easy. Or a better explanation would be the same analogy but tuning between different radio channels instead.
I don’t think I have any special language. I’ll say things that make sense to me at the time but it’s just weird gibberish. I’m a lot more careful about what I say now that I realize that. I’m a lot better about not saying stupid crap now that I’m on meds.
I used to believe this… when my word salad amps up, my sis can still understand what I say.
When I was always taking drugs, my druggie friends made perfect sense. Now that I’m clean and sober I bump into them out and about and I don’t understand them at all.
I do find that the deeper in lucid town I get, the less I understand or even empathize with some of my fellow group members or even my own younger brother who just got diagnosed.
I KNOW this is not the case… but I do get this feeling like I’m loosing my way back into that other existence and the more lucid I become, the more I loose touch with at place. I know that is just off the wall thinking… but it’s how I feel. (As I grow up, I can’t get back to Neverland.)
It sort of scares me that my sis can look at my old journals and remember and make sense of them and understand some of them… and I can’t.
I’ve only encountered this very rarely…people not making much sense when psychotic. I mean I had a friend in my teens who blew his mind out on acid and he spoke more cryptically at times then anyone I’ve ever known with Sz though his words made sense together it was simply what he was talking about exactly that was the mystery.
I know one kid who was diagnosed with Sz but has since been found to have had untreated Lymes disease who is very difficult to understand when he speaks and changes the subject mid sentence at times. But this is the worse case of any kind of formal thought disorder I’ve come across.
For me I never experienced any disordered thinking or speech even during the worst of my illness. I may not talk a whole lot generally I’m actually pretty quiet but ‘verbality’ is my strong point to the umpteenth degree. It’s where my mind has always been sharp, math being where my mind is as dull as a dimwitted (whatever is dull and dimwitted)…