My past had a reputation for letting people down. False advertising, fraud. I had no respect for life.
This is a confession in a way but if you have any tricks to stopping the train wreck of lies, let me know.
I didn’t know you had a problem with lies, @PinCushion. I would think that would be a hard thing to stop doing because there are rewards. But I’m glad you understand that it’s not healthy.
Maybe telling yourself the truth repeatedly and then telling another person the truth would help it to feel better to just tell the truth? I just “told the truth” in another post on here because I needed to put it out there and face it. Facing the truth and finding that it’s not the end of the world makes it easier to keep telling the truth.
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If you’re an adult you have to lie. A lot. In my crack addiction I was pretty good at using people, manipulating people, and conning people. Anything for a hit. And lying goes hand in hand with being an addict. But that was over 25 years ago. Now, I don’t have to cover my tracks and keep track of what lies I had going on with different people. I don’t do anything illegal and I don’t need to con my friends anymore. It’s actually makes me feel more free.
My only advice to you is it may be too late to make up for lying to people but just try not to add any new lies.
My friend is an active drug user and his drug of choice is cocaine, he claims hes not using it, but he lies a ■■■■ton. It really pisses me off I don’t wanna hang out with him anymore. I told him “dude you lied to me to get me to come over, and then you told me you wanted to be doing drugs, after you almost died in February from mixing cocaine with clozaril” and then he said a month later he invited me over and hes like “i don’t want you to think I’m a conniving piece of ■■■■” but he really is conniving. I don’t think hes a piece of S but man does he con, lie, manipulate a lot. Hes admitted to doing Adderall every day for a week. Right now his friend is visiting him and he said “I might do acid and some other drugs” I hope hes ok. hes schizoaffective and not doing well. He has all the addict traits its scary to see sometimes with this kid. I’m glad you got clean when you did. I’m worried about him these 10 days his friend is visiting him.
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It’s about acting happy when I’m not because those close to me felt threatened if anyone was unhappy. Now, it’s a habit of putting on a happy act.
It’s also guilt that I have so much and don’t work for it and can’t figure out why I can’t work. The fact that I’m in poor health and on oxygen is an “excuse” in my mind. I won’t give myself a break.
You know chordy I met a girl who I really wish would have had the time to listen to you. I wanted to help her… hah she was a whole helluva lot like you… miss matriarch.
Not a damn chance that I could’ve figured a way to set it in a way she’d get you and see… well basically herself.
It’s good knowing you chordy… sorry you were prompted to through out the rules. I know it does good for the species in the long run. Just saying that… in and across all levels… sacrifices accounted for… exploration is what has made us powerful.
So good on you for doing what you please… and god love you for still being with us miss wise!
How frustrating it is to have lost my mind and had to fake it until I could get help.
many kisses miss ole miss… not much I can do.
I am lucky to have an unconditional care giver or at least she is as unconditional as is humanly possible. Love is the only thing I know that can retrieve a lost mind. So, if you encounter it, don’t push it away.