About to talk about a weird episode that occurred to me a while back. I never called attention to it to my doctor, because I felt like I was strong enough with the meds I was taking to just deal with it as a reality.
I was in my room. There’s a window, but the blinders were on and it was totally covered. I was on my computer. There was a large block party going on next door, people laughing and shouting and acting like jackasses, although my mom said she heard nothing all night and slept like a baby. It seemed to come from one side of the house, but of course because of their volume, and the dimensions of the place I was living I could hear them wherever I went.
It really bothered me, people talking loudly and laughing a lot tends to set me off when I’m feeling a bit under the weather mentally. But these people were at one point seeming to talk about me. Like they’d narrate specific things I was doing in my room, like when I set the laptop down in front of me, and laid on my stomach, they said “Is he bending over?”
Then I wrote something down in my computer about sousveillance and how it worked, and another one of them, who sounded like some kid (Probably the one recording or tapping my computer), said, “He knows.”
Then the one who laughed about me laying on my stomach said, “Well, if he knows, and doesn’t freak out I give him credit.” Or something to that effect.
Is it possible that I was hearing things? I really don’t think so. I’ve never hallucinated in my life, wouldn’t it be obvious to me if I was? I generally have good insight and to my mind haven’t had any beliefs that were too outlandish, other than the fact that I’m worth watching (I’m not, my life is a bore.).
I never told my doctor, because I didn’t want to be told that I was hearing wrong, or that I was hallucinating. Now that I think about it, there were other instances where I tried to tell people that I heard people laughing in the hallways in the center where I was getting treatment, and the case manager said she heard nothing.
TLDR; I heard some things a few years back that seemed to confirm my beliefs that I’m being watched for some ignorant peoples’ amusement.