Everybody has been treating me real nice lately. It makes me feel good; it’s almost
like a spiritual experience, lol…
Feeling liked is probably no big deal to most of you guys. But for me, it’s a huge deal. I basically checked out of life when I was about 11 or 12. i withdrew and stopped talking to people. It was very hard on me and the few friends that i had treated me like an animal and laughed about it. Well, not all the time I guess. We had some fun times.
Anyways, I’ll stop posting so much about being liked. But for most of my life, being liked was a foreign concept. Now I’ve come full circle and both women and men are pretty nice to me and I enjoy talking to them.
Lately, I have been having the peace of mind that I have literally been craving for 35 years with paranoid schizophrenia. Not a euphoric, false high or anything. My symptoms will significantly lessen sometimes and I find peace. Stick with it folks, it could happen to you.
For the last two weeks I’ve felt great! People are being nice to me too.
Sometimes I say “am I a sellout” for forgiving the masses…for giving up using …am I a sellout for being not “bitter” at people who treated me poorly in the past. Then I tell myself “forgiveness is a good thing”
I’ve always secretly wanted to be a rodeo clown. I’ve never told anyone this before so keep it under your hat.
But seriously, I don’t know why I’m feeling so good lately. I’ve always heard that people with schizophrenia often experience a loss of symptoms or at least they lessen in intensity as they get older. That’s probably it.
