The more I fight it the worse it gets. I convince people its bipolar then its schizoaffective. My psychiatrist said I have schizophrenia and that its not bipolar or schizoaffective…
its confusing, I do sometimes get sad or depressed. I think thats why Abilify has helped the most it stops the depression and the paranoia at the same time. The main reason when the illness started was the paranoia and persecution delusions. I thought my dad was the FBI or some gov. agents that people had clones all the same things people have delusions about with schizophrenia. I have been doing well but since the Pandemic and isolation it seems i can feel that its coming back, or maybe I am just able to acknowledge and accept that these are symptoms I have had. I also dealt with depersonalization or the feeling of having no mind no conscience. I am fighting this disease when I get better i seem normal. Its so painful. I need someone else to acknowledge how well Im doing not deny that I have ever had schizophrenia as much as I would love to be free of this.
If sarcosine could cure schizophrenia I would do that and go off the Aristada but i think Im fooling myself I wonder if its even worth buying sarcosine Im considering it though.