So I had to get out of work. I explained the whole situation to my manager saying that it is not fair on my colleagues and that I am making accusations against them when they aren’t at fault.
I honestly feel at this point I need to get off the mood stabalisers and stay on the antipsychotics. I do not have bipolar so why be on more meds than necessary. I also have my answer now . It took me 10 years to finally realise I do not have bipolar… I was told it would take another psychosis to realise this so here we are.