For two-and-a-half-years I have dealt with so many drugs and all their horrible side effects.
The pdoc finally got me down to one medication (Closopine). I was starting to feel like I was again, with Seroquel, which I’m allergic to, and it took three months of me pucking for days every two weeks, for them to finally figure it out.
So I stayed nauseous for four months this time, (since Mid-December), and took myself off about 3 weeks ago, since no one else believes it could be the meds. I knew it was controversial, being my only medication, so I felt I had to keep it a secret. I should have told my pdoc, and I should definitely have weaned myself off!
I’m still sick, I know for a while it was withdraw, but I was ill before and I’m still ill. My stomach and body are extremely sensitive/unique to medication; some don’t work at all: nausea pills, sleeping pills, and benzos; anti-depressants and anti-psychotics tend to make me even more suicidal; adderal had no effect; didn’t feel much on morphine or norcos (I can’t believe the Dr. gave me morphine for a migraine, I told him a 7 in pain. I don’t know many docs that do that ).
One pill that has a real effect on me, is tramadol. I tried it for a while.
Anyone else been on Closopine? Anyone withdrawal from it?
I know I’m being careless by not being on at least one anti-psychotic, but since I quit, my mental capabilities are back to before I broke down and was diagnosed. I can hold conversations better. I’m more articulate while speaking. I’m back to thinking, and not worrying as much. If I ever want to go back to school, I think I’d have to go unmedicated. The meds just tear my brain apart!
I value my mind; I majored in psychology, it’s my ultimate passion. And maybe I’ve been feeling suicidal for 2 years (even though I’ve been diagnosed for 2&1/2 years) because I dropped out of college around then.
I was thinking of attending NAMI meetings, but with my social anxiety, I’m horrified. I went once, and caved under the pressure.