I’ve started therapy a month ago and it’s going great. I love it.
My therapist is young, beautiful, understanding and open minded woman.
She is helping me change my perspective about some things and we went over the cognitive distortions and I like it.
Some of the things which happened, she does not understand and considers a cognitive distortion. It’s the cultural difference. I decided to move on once and for all. I’m done.
I will continue therapy and doing my exercises and homework… i will start seeing the doc in 3-4 months and I will not change my med. I’m done and over. I wanna move on and forget I have an illness for now until the next relapse.
Maybe end of october I will quit smoking, it might trigger psychosis but whatever, this is me, I am crazy and I will recover.
I dont believe in cbt. If you could just talk the sz away wouldnt we all be cured? And how can she understand what youre going through if shes a neurotypical?
Well I find that sometimes it is best to accept that we are crazy and will recover. I mean I am pretty much recovered and I am still crazy.
Now I have to deal with people knowing I am crazy.
Try a different strategy if it just isn’t working. I’ve only had very much progress with one shrink…the others weren’t ineffective, I am just too hard to handle. Well, one of them knew how to handle me…really well. Like just incredible. I am a challenging patient…it’s both good and bad that I am educated in psyc and am driven.
Now it’s crap like “no dammit I don’t want to work in prison” or worse, me explaining faulty reasoning…on someone else’s part…like…the clinician…I like when I can’t do that and they are just able to handle me. It’s not like I don’t cooperate, it’s more like I have principles which I will not change. Yeah, it’s uncooperative at times.
