Something scary happened to me yesterday.
I suddenly got really intrusive thoughts about numbers. No mater what I did, it was as if someone was screaming numbers in my head, epsecially the numbers 9 and 8.
I also started thinking of wors that had letters in them that reminded me of those numbers, and I couldn’t make the thoughts go away no matter how hard I tried.
My heart started beating faster, and I couldn’t focus on anything else.
I wound up taking 100mg of seroquel and going to bed, just waiting for the meds to kick in so I could sleep it off.
What is this? Why did it happen?
Does this happen to anyone else?
This happens to me as well, not often numbers but the intrusive thoughts. I have a mentor who is also SZ that taught me something to the note of this; A lot of data in our mind can be left floating around. Some of that data being primal instinct to harm defenseless things for territorial reasons, irritable thoughts from people interacting with us. I infer that most all invasive thoughts are thoughts sort of “floating about” with no home. When the brain realizes this it tries to rationalize their existence, the best way our brain rationalizes is through our senses. My SZ has improved greatly since I practiced being mindful of what takes place in my mind. Next time these complications arise I’d dismiss the numbers, but find why numbers and not some other thought, and move from there. There’s nobody stopping us from the experimentation in our minds except us
