:following is yet another rant of mine sorry guys:
I have zero working skills, i don’t know to work in any field. Never learned anything useful. Or otherwise, as i can’t have any hobby, although i have some interests, but can’t follow on them. I have only useless high school, can’t get my university degree. While almost all people my age have years and years of working experience, i don’t have a minute of it. I’m feminine gay guy who is very weak too, so i can’t do physical jobs. I’ve lost my creative spark, so i can’t do creative work either. I’m bad at social situations, and can only utter some shallow stuff so i can’t work with people. I’m also unattractive so no money there.
My professor of rhetoric once said that everyone is good at something, whether it’s mere blinking or running global affairs. Let’s say that i make even blinking weird.
Seems to me you have a sense of humor in some of your replies to my posts. You might capitalize on that somehow, you think?
Have you seen Benny and Joon? Johnny Depp is hilarious in it. He’s a total clown: got kicked out of school, unemployed, etc. You might see if you can stream it. I loved it.
Thank you borath, other people too told me something along those lines, so it must be true. But it was all online, so that job should also be online. I’m weird in real life.
Yes definitely, but what kind of job? My biggest problem i guess is that i can’t learn things anymore. If i could, everything would be completely different, with all those online courses where you can learn new skills. But i can’t dedicate myself to anything. No drive or zest or will whatsoever. I’ve lost my capability to dig deep, if you get me.
I feel your pain man. I’m smart enough to know I’m not that smart, but too dumb to do the really romantic high-paying jobs. And also lacking the stamina for manual labor. And I’m not getting younger. It’s rough.
You should try considering trade school. Maybe you could learn to be a mechanic or plumber. You could paint houses or be a janitor. There are a lot of unglorious-but in demand-jobs out there that pay decently well (60 grand) that don’t require any of those skills you feel you lack.
Medication may help with that. If it doesn’t then I can’t think of much else other than disability payments sorry. Or maybe a job you could work from home. Donno what that would be though.
Maybe you can volunteer somewhere to help you gain confidence in your worth. I work with special needs kids and it’s perfect for me because it’s fulfilling and gets me out of my own head. The kids need me so it’s impossible for me to focus on myself.
Don’t let negatives be your mantra. Of course you have worth and purpose! I even think your post was charming, the way you word things is charming. Keep trying and you’ll find your place. Even if it’s in a warehouse doing inventory or something. Any job or activity can be fulfilling.
Dont think about “how you are” thats part nature part your decision to follow a path of love.
I used to have a non hetero lifestyle and chose to leave it due to the fact it angered me severely.
To gain good habits is what you should look for. I know guys out of prison who got an honest hustle and they might not be comfortable but theyre happy to a degree.
Im a balanced guy with a fortunate situation. It cured my schizophrenia. Thats huge. You need to find a path. Trust in the goodness and fortitude of your own abilities. Then follow a path of wisdom. That gets you good jobs.
sorry. Or maybe a job you could work from home. Donno what that would be though.