I just joined the forum and wanted to make an intro post early on. I’m a male in my 30’s who just found out what schizoaffective is, years after I was given the diagnosis. It was never explained and I feel I was led to believe that it was another type of bipolar (which I have). I have a history of severe PTSD and thought that the hallucinations and delusions I’ve had were caused by this. I began to wonder about whether or not I could have schizophrenia only a couple weeks or so ago, when my wife mentioned that seeing hidden messages in numbers and ceiling tiles was not good. I’ve only recently started seeing a new therapist who, when I mentioned my fear, reassured me that schizophrenia is not the end of the world.
I recently began my own research on what it means to be schizoaffective, and it seems that if you have schizoaffective disorder you also have schizophrenia. Can anyone verify this? I began to read about schizophrenia, and something amazing happened. It all fit. Every little piece that never seemed to have a place had found one. An enormous weight was lifted off my shoulders. I finally understood myself.
Now that I know this is not just PTSD, I can begin to make changes that can best enhance my overall chances of success. And that includes reaching out to others who have dealt with this sort of thing, then to do the same for others in time.
But will this peaceful acceptance change unexpectedly to anger, fear, or panic? It doesn’t feel like it will, but it wouldn’t be the first time.
Thanks for reading. I look forward to talking with those that I will.