Hi I am a new member. I am 24 I just got a pc with internet finally in the last 6 months and I want to become a part of a schizophrenic society online. anyway I have schizo affective disorder. diagnosed when I was 20. I was mis diagnosed with drug induced phycosis when I was 16. anyway I live on a small island in Canada. small city. only two cities in the province. I lived in the most populated parts of the country and the hardest parts of the country in a homeless shelter. anyway I have as you know the more severe diagnosis of the bunch but all I am going to say is that I am a young buck that had drug problems since an early age and I live life at 24 enjoying my partying and adrenaline just as if I haven’t straighnted up yet. I am an average downtown gangster type, I am a very likeable guy and I am proud to say I have have gotten by in recent months on self employment gained through my trusty accosiates who I pick and chose. and all I know is I sourround myself in an environment where I am happy. and having the mental health club house buy me loads of new furniture and my best friend who is an older man who decided to have someone important stick around to keep him company and comfort bought me a brand new pc.
The unmedicated schizo trips I went through were nothing compared to my anxiety levels.
I walked around for seven months in a lung debiliatation anxiety attack that lasted 100% of the time and it was so painful it felt like I had an arrow through my chest and a broken neck.
then for a year straight I had a 3 hour panic attack and blinding hallucination period that would keep me housebound everyday. I remember one thought I had in one of the attacks and it was I wish I was going through the “OFF BREATH” period instead of these dirty evil thoughts and voices that were coming forth.
all I know is that I came out of the breathing problem naturally and it hasn’t come back because I was to beaten down by it. I was to scared to cry from the pain because I thought it would kick my chest in and kill me.
then the year I had the three hour attacks I was honest about the thoughts with a friend… he prayed for me… and within a week I was in the hospital and recovered beuitfully.
All I wanna say is that anything on this planet is possible with mental illness. Pain and suffering is a human condition… maybe we deal with it a bit more… but recovery is all to beautiful and euphoric.
I have been medicated on the intra muscular injections for the last 4 years and I am thankful everyday for that very fact. it keeps me going. all I know is that I pray for those who are suffering mentally or undiagnosed… but a nice mental note to go by for those concerned is that the phycosis after it kicks in fully only lasts about 5 months and if someone walks undiagnosed they are running on their natural sanity chemicals that kick in after that period. there is no such thing as hell on earth for anybody. there is a such thing as a hell…but I read once there is always a space for the mentally ill in heaven… and ultimetly if we are the scariest thing to walk this planet… maybe some politicians terrorists and drug dealers should realize what their minimal effort is doing to planet earth.
