I will move on with my life. I am tired of this empty life.
People are living their lives, having kids, starting families and i am here trying to solve how the past was. who the hell cares. It is unfortunate I have not many people around me to help me like family but I have been alone for 10 years. Today I have been thinking maybe it is something good to be alone. I have complete freedom and choice over my life.
But another 10 years like this is illogical.
Don’t you have a boyfriend?
But I agree there are advantages of being alone. The freedom and choice helps develop individuality and independence IMO.
LOL yeah but he does not make my decisions or choices. 
and lonely I mean family around me like mom and dad, sister / brother / cousins / nephews / aunties and uncles. I have no one, only a few friends. My bf has a life of his own. we spends weekend together and honestly i have so much free time that I think about him and what is wrong in my life more than necessary.
Oh I see you. I know your relationship with your boyfriend isn’t peaches and cream, but I get an image in my head of him being a good guy and all you know? I hope you find what is best for you.
thank you and likewise 
yes he is a great guy
If you’re not happy , you can work to change it.
I just wonder a lot. I see the whole world rushing after jobs and climbing ladders and in the process just not enjoying their lives. People want a better job so they can get a house and a car but no time to enjoy their home. What good is a house without a home.
The two symbols that scare me the most ! 
what are you talking about @anon80629714 ?
I can enjoy my life as much as I can. I have time and lucky enough to just sleep all day long and not do anything. I have a house, it is as I always dreamt. I have a job I love. I am ambitious. I love being productive and working.
This is my life and I need to accept it and move on. What more can anybody ask in their life? I am MI so it is tough struggle but maybe if I have someone like a kid to take care of, I will stop focusing on my MI so much.
I will of course take absolute 200% precaution in everything I do and be closely monitored. I still have not discussed with my doc but I asked him once and he said, yes you can have a kid.
I misunderstood I thought this meant you want to change things…
I’m just saying the difference between home and house is… I feel people just spend so much time investing their time to buy houses. They forget their home.
House - building
Home - family
I’m obviously having a hard time explaining myself at this time of the day. Better sleep before I talk more ■■■■
aw no thank you have a goodnight 
Selene I’m sorry you’re unhappy but I kind of look up to people like you. I guess I need to get my arse moving so I can get where you and others are at.
You have a lot to be proud of and I think you’re a nice person,
I love being single. It’s better for me.
I don’t like being in a relationship. I hate being told what to do. All the stress is not worth it.
no one tells you what to do in a healthy relationship
Yeah it is more supportive than stressful. I am happy and lucky. I am just living with resentment for no reason which makes me unhappy. Plus I feel anhedonia so
Yeah I don’t get the apparent desire of some men to control women. I don’t see myself becoming that way.
it is something to share ideas and be involved and care. It is something else to try to control?! some women are like that too.
Yeah, I can see some women being that way. I just hope I don’t get involved with a woman that is doing something really harmful. It might be hard for me to leave. By harmful I mean things like substance abuse or that sort of thing.
No offense meant to people who deal with that kind of stuff. It’s a medical issue.
I’ve only been in bad controlling/abusive relationships.
Sorry to hear that Jackie, I’m glad you got out.
Admirable. I would like to do this one day. There are obstacles but I will try anyway.