Hi. I’m new to this site. I’m the only person I know with schizoaffective bipolar type.
I present with delusions and mild hallucinations, mostly auditory with extremely mild visual- i.e. see things in my peripheral vision or just a flash in front of me.
I also seem to change personality with my moods. There are two major "me"s and I am completely integrated- aware of both. It is more like my beliefs and way of acting change, not my core self. Angry me and “normal” me. I haven’t been open with my pdoc or counselor about this part of me. I have a strong fear of being institutionalized since my mother put me away at age 14 for about 2 weeks in a state run hospital. I pretended to be well to get out. I have been in the hospital 3 times in the past year since I had a psychotic break April of last year. My personality and self seems fractured and frail since then.
I am on Invega Sustenna and it seems to work almost as well as Risperdal Constant. I also tack lamitrigine for mood stabilizer. I missed a month of Invega and am just now getting back to speed.
I am in a depressive state right now with suicidal ideation and no motivation. My husband has been helpful. I am 42 and was first diagnosed as psychotic in my teens, major depression, then major depression with psychotic features, and finally schizoaffective bipolar type.
So…here I am. Hi.
