So hello, this is my first post and honestly I’m just hoping to get some answers. Help maybe? Ive been scrolling through this forum for awhile and literally found people actually going through what I am going through. I’m not diagnosed and literally as I right this I’m still hanging on to a certain delusion I suppose. It made me quit my full time job and move from my apartment to a different state back with my parents. It started in April and had gradually gotten worse since. It drove me to thoughts of suicide which is why I decided to move. My parents won’t believe that I’m troubled because socially I’m still able to communicate. My thoughts go insane though and I do talk to myself internally (voices?) and out loud when I’m alone. It seems to be a common delusion (Truman syndrome?) super frustrating though. It’s to the point where things happen and I simply can’t deny them. I’m obviously not on meds so I don’t know what to do. Does it get worse? As you can imagine I barely started to admit it might be an illusion yesterday so my beliefs are somewhat there still. Making this sort of difficult. What do I do?
See a doctor, say you suspect something like schizophrenia and be completely honest with them.
you don’t understand how grateful I am someone replied… That’s the thing, it’s almost as if my parents are in denial more than I am, I’m still quite young. Honestly making this whole thing a seemingly endless cycle. A huge realization to me though were that all my symptoms are here… All of them.
There are so many things it COULD be. Society as a whole seems sick. I have never heard of so many cases of anxiety/panic attacks. People I know who never experienced such things are occasionally experiencing it themselves. Go see a psychiatrist; not a therapist. This is your good first step. Good luck. If there are to be meds, please stay ‘connected’ to others (possibly here) so you can distinguish what are med side effects and not ligit thoughts of your own. The meds themselves can throw you for a loop until they find one that actually helps.
Really, there’s so much I can look up online that really just makes it worse… People conspiracies, television… Its hard to admit but there things happening that should be impossible… That’s also why I’m here, moving made me leave my only friend which was my girlfriend. I’ve been alone and jobless since. My parents work so I’m usually alone here. Again, adding to this all
I hate the moments there seems no control over my own brain. Heres some advice: Never mind the world at large, whats going on here or there. Think only of yourself right now. If your parents aren’t accepting it will be the job of your psychiatrist to explain away the 'law and order; CI…Hollywood rendition of your diagnosis.
Go to one of these centers on Monday.
Totally know how you feel. I live with my aunt and uncle because I had no where else to go after having an episode that lasted months after my mom unexpectedly died.
My aunt and uncle don’t believe there’s anything wrong with me because I can function socially (which is totally forced). They made me get a job, which I’m struggling with daily.
Like the rest say, go see a doctor. Have your parents involved in the diagnosis, if you wish. It might help them understand.
Just wanted to say hi. Long time no talk odile
thank you so much, my situation right now as far as home circumstances are rather unique but there should be no excuse for me to not seek the help… I can seem to make myself feel okay, but what’s happening won’t stop.
I am confidant you’ll find the help you need 
Hi, turningthepage! I’ve been around, but not active in the forums so much. My job is so physically demanding. I’m aching head to toe.
Sorry about your mother… it’s incredible… I’ve always been super curious about how the world works and my purpose blah blah… But I never thought id be in the situation I’m in now. really hard to get out of and its only stared months ago. I hope your okay too and thanks for the input this has all grounded me so much
Well I’m glad you’re hanging in there. I’m doing well. Just started a new job…kind of physically demanding too but not too many hours. Hope you feel better/stay strong I know you can do it.
hi
take care 
Thank you, and really in seeming to grasp all of what people are saying but it’s so close to what I’m going through… I’m doing my best to find it helpful. I truly do feel like I don’t control my mind sometimes and it leads to so many things… I Convince myself there all happening somehow.
I’m almost afraid to leave this forum, as soon as I turn around something happens.
I swear you will cherish your ‘alone’ time again, sitting and weeding through your own thoughts.
I do crave to be alone the rare times I’m not. That’s always interesting to me.