I want to admit something negative of myself which I could not accept is that I had a negative influence,I seems to not see the optimistic and happy side of people or situation,it seems to be wired into my brain since young
I hope this negative affect is not for permanent and can be changed,I am visiting a therapy or support group soon,I had been to 3 support group and 2 of it really had an positive and beneficial effect for me
Positivity is what is bad in this situation and people only want you to do it because they are selfish and want you to say what they would like to hear. They want you to either entertain them, show them respect, tell them how funny they are, things like that.
And all the while there is a sneaking suspicion and fear within that you are probably going to get cancer at some point.
So smile away. Even though this is a nightmare you be as positive as you like about it.
A kind person though frowns at all of this suffering and death, it just doesn’t sit well with them for some reason and they aren’t positive about it.
One should properly define pity party as well, sometimes people over use that whole thing, it’s true no one enjoys a pity party but alot of the time people accuse others of it it simply isn’t logical or kind to do so. So cruel, so very very cruel.
I really hate that I do not enjoy the moment,like a basketball session for example,I feel I lose to a person who enjoy the most,I don’t enjoy,but I can see that changing for the better in the near future though
Most people in this lifetime are a bit on the scowling and disgruntled side.
Life may be an asylum shrugs
I’ve decided to be more altruistic in empathizing with their unbalance more so than
going over and over again in my mind as to how their negative demeanors serve toxic to me or not.
I don’t mean that I’m all ‘High and Mighty’ just that I’ve been doing ‘Nuts’ longer than they have
so I’m much better than most people at it. lol
Also, if you believe there is something behind the scenes a more honorable way of looking at difficult people
you find yourself stuck with is that, maybe, whoever is behind the scenes felt that you learned enough to be able to be company for them where as many others would not. =)
ie; Check the Zodiac wheel - I was born Pisces - One of my first friends was a born-again Aquarian and the friend I met after him a born-again Aries (Apollo).
Do I find it condescending that an invisible teacher might be matching up students? Well - maybe had I been informed before venturing into the world like it was meant to be a non-linear experience.
Of course all of the above is speculation
But I would stop and ask - “What is this person lacking that I might know better about?”
And secondly: Don’t expect most you come by to have all of their sandwiches in their picnic basket; most of us on Earth appear to have our own sort of crazy. =)
It seems people aren’t generally aware of there being realism, in addition to optimism and pessimism.
The glass may or may not be half empty or half full. The point is: there is water in the glass. Or, it’s half empty and half full. Half empty because half of the cup is without liquid, half full because the glass contains half liquid. So really, what is the point in thinking inside of the half full/half empty paradigm?