Do you have any idea of what might be causing your exhaustion? How much sleep do you get at night? Could it be a product of having to constantly manage your other symptoms and live life at the same time?
Lol sorry to barrage you with questions. Thank you very much for the detail!
Hmm ok thank you for the feedback. Iāll continue ruminating over this one.
i have quite a flexible schedule. I have slept 12+ hours many many many days in the last couple months. its been like this for the last year or 2.
i have bipolar moods though mostly hypomania and then back to level mood or just sleepy, i can sleep 12 hours one day and then im screwed because i have work the next day and ill only sleep like 3 hours the next . terrible sleep patterns.
i actually thrive on activity. and i end up more tired on inactivity. forced activities like having to go to work help me. because i have no choice and it must be done.
my work schedule being sporadic at times and not a rigid schedule since I own the company plays a part in that probably.
Note: I have tried really healthy diets for months with no effect, so its not been diet, ive tried elimination diets to see if allergies were the case and no luck. I can pretty much eat whatever and be the same.
im kinda stubborn, its possible i could have some other health issue maybe a heart related issue. but i just i dont want to go in and get a million tests done.
i used to have a lot of positive symptoms 2 years ago but they have mellowed out over the last year, so ive just taken the thought that maybe my brain is just going into some healing process after all the positive activity.
I did much the same, with a bit more success. My mother credited voice lessons with helping my presence, posture and confidence. From there I joined a singing group and made some friends.
I also took some acting classes, and did some community theater. While Iām not that good at it, I liked acting because it allows you to repeat the same social situations over and over again and improve your emotional connection.
One thing I learned about theater was that 80% of success is just showing up. And they are always looking for male actors. Most actors are pretty flakey so they make someone with sz look reliable 
. Iād recommend trying out for a play to folks with sz, if they feel they can handle the possible rejection and stress of being on stage.
So you do find routine helpful when you have it? I find that I have to keep busy as wellā¦if Iām too busy Iām stressed and my symptoms get worse, but if Iām not busy enough I guess my mind wants to occupy itself and my symptoms also get worse.
Oversleeping is a common problem in sz, as are most other sleep disorders. I believe this is due to the issues with the neurons in charge of sleep that sz brains have been found to have. Biological thing, but I also think emotional/mental strain plays a part.
Thereās just so many dang factors to keep in mind.
yes routine is very helpful for me
yes acting is quite fun, id like to get back into it in the near future. I also took an improvisation class. thats a really good one, rather unnerving though it requires thinking on your feet. or i should say not thinking and just getting in the flow.
I donāt really like being put on the spot , it might be the fear of failure or pressure. but when i get into it , its quite fun
Yeah, I tried improv too. Itās fun but itās hard. I have so much respect for people who can do it well.
one game i really enjoyed was
example: I say, Today I went for a walk , person 2 says : Yes and then stopped to tie my shoe .
Player 1 says : Yes and then my shoe laces caught on fire.
Player 2 says : Yes and then the fire department came to put it out!
Player 1 says : Yes! and then I became a fire man!
Player 2 says Yes and my firesuit didnt fit me
Player 1 says: Yes and then my grandmother sewed me new ones!
and it continues for as long as you want 
another good one is āEndless Boxā this is where you imagine pulling random objects out of a box endlessly as fast as you can without thinking. excellent for creativity.
We have the same life 
Haha, that was funny, Iām sure itās a fate shared by thousands if not millions around the world. Itās hard butā¦ comforting to know free time isnāt an issue!
I would say both. The fact that Iām too self centered might have something to do with it.
I donāt know what it is. I think I know why I do that, but I donāt feel like discussing it right now.
Thatās fine! 
Thank you for sharing what you were comfortable with!
For meā¦ my negatives were
Lack of motivationā¦ I would be up for trying something, and then just loose the focus and energy before beginning. It was very easy to talk me out of stuff.
I feel for me at one timeā¦ there was a deep cognitive problem. For bathing, I would want to swim, or take a bathā¦ I would startā¦ but then just loose the focus and not do it. Or I would sort of forget as I was doing something. I would take a bath, but forget to change the clothing.
I had a poverty of speech when I was at my worst. I had no energy to speak to people. I just sat in my own headā¦ very disconnected.
The symptom I hate the most is the flat emotions. I am upset about something, but no one can guess it. Or people think Iām cold and critical because I donāt have any expression on my face. That gets frustrating at timesā¦ My family knows me enough, not to take in the lack of expressionā¦ listen to the words. That is when I started writing letters a lot.
Sometimes I felt nothing. I just felt so numb. Not depressed because that would be something.
I felt like I was covered in wax. People would talk to me, say stuff and want me to interact but I had nothing to sayā¦ I had no reaction about what they were doing.
I just had this numb cut off feeling. I wasnāt really here. I was just sort of here like a chair. But not something people would interact with.
Now that Iām doing better, I need routine and to keep up and moving. If I have too much free time, I can easily spend days being motionless if I have nothing to get up for and nothing to do. Not good.
Itās still a lot of hard work to follow through with a project or get something finished. But Iām getting better at that.
The negative symptoms are the worst part of it. For me medication keeps the positive symptoms at bay. Except for delusions, if I tell anyone what I think they tell me I am delusional so I have learned to keep my thoughts to myself. The flat effect you just canāt shake that off or hide it. Also, when I was working and weāll I never had enough time in the day to do the things that I wanted to do. Now I have all the time in the world and I donāt want to do anything. That is very frustrating.
Maybe I do have negative symptomsā¦that things where you just lose track of what youāre doing or forget happens to me ALL the time, my thoughts just get so scatteredā¦I remember one time I was bringing a gift to a professor. I got to the building, realized I had forgotten gift. Went back to dorm for it. Left dorm again, still no gift!! I went back again for it, and managed to leave a third time without it!! Ridiculous!
That and stuff like forgetting to bring my flute to band practice, forgetting whoās birthday I was celebrating at a party, Iām a mess. Everyone just thinks itās a silly part of my personality but it makes life really difficult sometimes.
And poverty of speechā¦Iād been experiencing since after my depressionā¦(I always figured it was because I stopped talking to people when depressed so I lost my conversational skills) but yeah I wonāt have anything to say and then I end up mumbling random things. And I know Iām mumbling because I donāt know what to say so then Iām afraid theyāre judging me so I donāt look them in the eyes and itās a load of poop.
So maybe I do have negative symptomsā¦I just havenāt noticed them because I donāt get flat effectā¦but honestly I feel like Iāve dealt with a lot of the other stuffā¦hmm. Will discuss with therapist.
Thanks for sharing!