Today is my son’s birthday. He would have been 11 this year. It’s crazy how long it’s been since I held him in my arms. I miss him so much. Usually I make him a special birthday cake every year, but this year I was worried I wouldn’t have time, so my sister made his cake instead. It turned out really pretty. And it smells delicious. It’s cinnamon.
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That is a beautiful cake!
I’m so happy you guys celebrate his birthday like this,
A lot of people would feel its too painful, and I’m sure it is,
But its a great way to stay close to those memories and honor him.
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What happened to your son LED ??
Sorry if I am being too intrusive I don’t want to cause your grief but since you are already thinking of him…
How did you lose him, @LED?
I’m sorry to hear of your loss but very happy you cherish your son this way. What a beautiful sentiment and your sister is very talented.
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He was stillborn. I called the nurse line because something felt wrong, but he was still alive, and they said it was fine, to just relax. So I got angry they didn’t listen to me and got in my car to drive and clear my head. Then I went into labor 6 hours later and by the time I got to the hospital he barely had a heartbeat. They gave me meds to speed up labor, but he died minutes before being born.
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Interestin how you suspected something was not right. Guess there are invisible ties between a mother and her unborn child…
But there is no guarantee that if you had gotten to the hospital earlier they would have been able to save him, even by doing a c section… I hope you are not blaming yourself for what happened.
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Thank you. I do blame myself some. Especially for just calling instead of going to the hospital to get checked out in the first place. Maybe if they had checked his heartbeat then it wouldn’t have ended like it did.
But, also, my life would be so so so much different than it is now. And not necessarily in a good way. It’s hard to think about that.
You know you shouldn’t blame yourself.
That’s a tragic story, but you did the right thing,
I think its most important that you remember him and continue being a loving mother to your adorable daughter.
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