I always covered up how my mom used to abuse me with verbal and other abuses.
she is a holocaust survivor so I was expected and it was demanded of me to serve her as best as I could and to worship her as well, anyhow.
this has left terrible scars. I believe it ticks off my sz.
judy
Your mom must have suffered enormously. Try to view her with compassion. If you’ve gotten scars from her, imagine what kind of scars she got in the holocaust.
You shouldn’t have had to answer for her suffering by suffering too. I’m sorry, Judy, for the legacy of pain your mother passed on to you. She must have used all her strength just to survive the nightmare she experienced, but I wish she had had enough left to protect you from her own “demons”. Forgiving our parents is part of our healing, but knowing you didn’t deserve any sort of abuse is important too. 
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This is terrible and completely iracional. Did she survive the holocaust for the sake of being worshipped by her offsprings, or does it have anything to do with anyone else?
I recommend you getting out of that pseudo-ethics and slave mentality as soon as possible.
I recommend this (I read it too):
Nina Brown: Children of the self absorbed
I think you do right when you serve as best as you can. I did the same thing for my father too. Older women often complain about things and all should not be taken seriously. You should be proud of your mother.
I strongly disagree with you, @Sarad .
My father is old, he sometimes uses hurtful language towards me, but I excuse him because of his age.
You have every right to. It is hard to agree with something that breaks everything you ever believed and knew.
Abuse is abuse. Regardless of the source. When it comes from a mother or father there is added trauma. I’ve suffered some bad things but that doesn’t give me a license to abuse my child. I’m sorry @ifeelblessed.
Not everyone is blessed with a mother they can be proud of. At least we can get some distance later in life, which counts for something.
Pixel.